Say Goodbye (A Chris Brown Love Story)

Chapter Sixteen

"Mariah!" Hayden called, running up to me.

"Hey." I greeted casually, walking along side her.

"How's the little munchkin doing?" She rubbed my stomach.

"She or he is doing just fine." I answered. There was a small baby bump now, I was 3 months along. I was doing much better now but not a day went by when I didn't think about Chris. I had gotten a job at the ice cream parlor in the mall and it paid good so Rodrick didn't help me as much. He still came by the house a lot but when I had told him I didn't want a relationship with him, he backed off. I had thought he understood what I was going through but he still admitted to me one night that he liked me. I didn't feel the same way and I made sure he understood that.

Graduation was tomorrow and I couldn't help but think what Chris was doing about school. He missed the last three months of school so he had to either repeat or take the classes during summer to get his diploma. Yet, I doubt that he was even thinking about school, he was probably working with the guys that took him. If I had known that I wasn't gonna see him again that day, I would've stayed home and spent every second I could with him. But I had no idea. When I came home and found that letter, I was completely shocked. Sometimes at night, I'll read the letter over and over again, reminding myself that he still loves me. And he always will.

"What are you gonna name the baby?" Hayden asks me.

"Um, if it's a boy, I'm naming him after Chris. He'll be a junior. If its a girl, I'll name her Christiana or Alyssa."

"I like Alyssa. Christiana is too Chris." I glared at her.

"It's his child, I want them to have his name somehow." I told her.

"But don't you think it would be easier to forget about-"

"Hayden!" I snapped at her. "Don't you dare say it would be easier to forget about him if the baby didn't have his name. What if I don't want to forget about him?"

"Well I thought you would. Doesn't it just hurt to think about him? You didn't even go to prom because of him."

"Yeah, true." I replied. "But I never want to stop thinking about him. Because I love him and he means everything to me."

"Mariah, you can't ever move on if you keep-"

"Who said I wanted to move on? You know what, just stop talking about it. When I'm ready to move on, I will. But not now." She sighed and finally gave up.

"Alrighty then." This wasn't the first time she had asked me about moving on. I know Chris said in his letter that I needed to but I just couldn't yet. Chris was the love of my life, that's the whole reason I got my tattoo. Rodrick had given it to me, I was being childish and wanted to get My Hubby: Christopher somewhere on my body so I chose to get it at the bottom of my back at my panty line so you can't see it unless I slightly pull my panties down. I have a feeling Rodrick hated and enjoyed giving me that tattoo at the same time. Hated it because it was about Chris but loved it because of where he was putting it. He had his hand on my butt the WHOLE time.

School was boring as always and I couldn't help but zone out and doodle Chris's name on my notebook. Hayden said I needed some serious help but I'm just in love, that's all. Doesn't she understand that?

After school, I call Rodrick to make sure he picks up Daniella while I go to work at the ice cream parlor. When I started working there, my cravings had kicked in and I wanted to try all the freaky ice cream flavors. My co-worker, Camille said that they were actually good and I ended up trying them all. Either they were actually delicious or my cravings are making my mind think they're delicious. Either way, I loved it. But I had to back off the ice cream. Too many sweets. And plus, I didn't want to get fat since I was already going to be gaining weight from the baby.