Chasing Moonlight #savealife

Chapter 24 : ~Diary Entry~

July 1, 2013

As I lie on my bed, in a brand new room of a brand new house, I think of all the events that took place today. We moved out today. Me, mum and Anubhav. We left him behind. We left all the abusive language, the threats to beat one, the blackmailing, the unpeaceful environment, everything, we left everything behind with dad.

We broke the news of moving out on friday, two days back. The only thing my father said was, "Move out on Sunday 'cause I'm going to Delhi tomorrow".

I think he saw it coming. Anticipated it, may be. He knew how much he ever loved his own kids. He has found love in some other home, with some other woman, with somebody else's kids. Do I blame him? Yes.

What did me and Anubhav ever do to deserve a father like ours? What kind of man doesn't love his own kids?

On Sunday, we went to hire a truck to move our stuff to our new house. When my father came, we had already started loading our stuff in the truck. He didn't complain.

All the while, he kept asking the workers to lift our stuff as fast as possible and move out 'cause he had somewhere more important to go.

May be, just may be, it broke my heart that he didn't even bother to stop us once.

My uncle came at 12:00 a.m. to talk to us why we moved out. Why we shifted houses. Why we never told him anything. So many whys yet one answer to all. Funny.

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July 2, 2013

Yesterday, in my dad's hurry, we left a few stuff behind. We had to go back collect it today.

Today my dad's whole mind set up was different. He kept begging us not to leave. Ultimately, he asked my mum to write she's moving out on her own and that he has no role in it.

What scared me the most was when he pinned me against the wall and forced me to say that my father is dead now for me. I had to because he had me pinned and he didn't let me go unless I did.

I'm afraid of this man.