My Savior { jastin }

Chapter 8

This is it. It's been a long time coming.

There's no need for me to be around when nobody cares for me. I thought I would do society a favor and take myself away, maybe then everyone would be happy.

To mom and dad, I tried my best for you guys. I'm sorry I didn't try hard enough. I was the one that deserved to die instead of Brody. He was always the better son, you guys would say it yourself.

To Jason, I love you more than anything and I'm sorry that I wasn't what you wanted. Just know that you're all I ever wanted.

And yes, love. I know we just met, and it's crazy to think I could love someone that quick. You're just, you're amazing to me.

I'm sorry to everyone. But now you don't have to worry about seeing me ever again.
I'm done with everything.
I'm done with my life.

Justin

I laid the paper on Jason's bed and wrapped myself in my hoodie.

This is it.

I wiped away my tears and left the house.

_

It seemed like I walked for miles and miles before I got to the cliff.

Below was nothing but freezing water.

The type of freezing that would basically kill you if you were in it too long.

It was a long jump down, but I wasn't worried.

I wanted this and so did everyone else.

I need to leave.

Everyone would be happy then.

My parents wouldn't even know, the kids at school would be happy to hear it, and making them happy, maybe that could be a way to show people the world wasn't filled with heartless people.

I wanted to make people happy.

I took a deep breath and said my last words that will forever be true.

"I love you Jason and I'm sorry." I walked to the edge and bit my lip harshly, hugging the jacket tighter.

Jason

I walked into a quiet house.

None of the lights were on, so I'm guessing Justin was sleeping?

I walked up to my room tiredly, once I got in there I took off my hat and collapsed on my bed.

I turned over and saw a piece of paper.

I looked at it curiously and realized it to be Justin's handwriting.

I looked over it one more time to make sure I read everything correctly, before I got what was going on.

I ran out of my room with the note in my hand to try and find my keys. Once I had them I literally jumped in my car and drove.

I don't know where he was, but I had a clue.

This is all my fault. I shouldn't have made him go to school.

I should have told my gang about him. I should have tried harder.

Now he's leaving me with no one.

The one person I see a future with.

_

"Fuck." I punched the steering wheel repeatedly and raced down the streets with my tears freely falling.

I didn't care, I just needed to get to him.

"Fucking idiot!" I yelled.

I was chanting over and over in my head to hurry.

Get there before he does it. I need him just as much as he needs me.

_

Damn seatbelt.

It wouldn't come undone. Everything was blurry because my tears were in the way, but I needed out.

Finally I got unbuckled and ran out of the car.

Not even bothering to shut the door.

Please be there Justin.

Please be there.

I ran and ran, but I was too late.

"Justin!"

He nodded his head and took a final step.

Away from me.

No.  I'm not giving up that easily.

He can't leave me, so I did the only thing I could think of.

I jumped in after him.

I need him.

I love him.

{ A/N so what do y'all think? They both jumped in! Do you think they're going to make it?

*Editing the rest of the book from this chapter on because I don't know what I was thinking writing the way I did before, blah.
So bare with the horrible fuck of grammar and and all that jazz and how I badly progressed the story.
I'll fix it when Im not feeling lazy mwah }