My Savior { jastin }

Chapter 24

Justin

As I sat with Charlie and Bruce, we went through some stuff. Dangerous stuff.

They want me to join the gang. I don't get why they want me to, they used to even be against me being in the room whenever they talked about missions and whatnot.

"Look Justin, all you have to do is help plan the missions. You don't even have to go on the missions alright?" Charlie asked softly, obviously noting my fearful expression. I looked at Bruce who seemed to be in agrrement with Charlie.

I thought it all over in my head. I've been here for 2 1/2 weeks, rent free. They are protecting me from other gang members.

Jason has changed. For the worst. He's so mean now. Like me and him never had anything, which hurts. A lot.

But I also just don't want to do it. It's not me. I can find another way to pay them back, I don't want to do it.

"We'll let you sleep on it." Charlie whispered and patted my back. Him and Bruce got up to leave and I sighed, burying my head into my hands.

"Hey." Jessica cheered,  capturing my attention a little while after they left. She was wearing Jason's overly large shirt and her legs were showing. It made me want to cry.

I used to wear his clothes.

I didn't bother replying. She was so happy and beautiful it isn't even a joke. I got up and I felt her frowning at me which made me uncomfortable.

I felt bad in a way, but I can't stand her. Even if she is nice. I scoffed and grabbed a gatorade from the fridge before walking out of the kitchen. I accidentally bumped Jason's shoulder on the way out.

"Watch where you're going idiot." He growled and shoved past me. I sighed and jogged upstairs to my room.

I quickly searched the room. I tore out my dresser drawers and looked in the closet. There it was on the dresser. Nice and shiny.

I sighed and grabbed twisting it round and round in my hand. I looked at my arms and laughed darkily. He never cared and stupid me fell inlove with him. Stupid me. Everyone at school was right. No one loves me.

I felt my eyes sting as I tossed the blade back in the dresser, closing my eyes after.

Jason kissed down my chest and looked at me through his eyelashes. He grabbed my arms gently and kissed every scar on my arm.

He whispered sweet things as he laid wet, open mouth kisses on the them. I felt my eyes water as he kissed my jaw up to my mouth.

As our lips moved together as he wiped my eyes and rubbed my side.

"I love you." He whispered and I squeezed my eyes shut.

"You're beautiful Justin." He mumbled and kissed my forehead.

"I'll love you forever and ever okay?" He breathed and I brought my pinkie up. "Promise?" I whispered and he grinned locking his pinkie with mine.

"I promise boo."

I cried as warm thoughts of me and Jason flooded my mind.

He broke his promise. Why would he break his promise?

Jason

"How about you go pick out the movie." I whispered in Jessica's ear and she giggled.

"Okay boo." She skipped upstairs and I raked through my hair.

She was so... different. Like I don't belong with her. Or any girl.

Maybe I really am gay? I can't, get with it whenever we're having sex. I feel gross kissing her. And it's not because she's ugly, I'm just not attracted to her. Or any girl for that matter.

"Jason." I looked at Charlie and raised my eyebrow. "I need to talk to you." He mumbled and sat me down.

"We asked Justin to join the gang." He spit out and I whipped my head around to look at him.

"You did what?" I stood up and looked at him, shocked.

"Just to help plan the missions Jason." He mumbled and I shook my head rapidly. "No." I repeated over and over agin. "No! He isn't joining. It's not safe and you know that Charlie!" I yelled.

He just raised his eyebrows and stood up in front of me.

"No." I whispered and he scoffed.

"Make up your fucking mind Jason!" He yelled.

"What the hell do you mean 'Make up my fucking mind' Charlie?" I snapped and he laughed dryly.

"He leaves you, you find him, you say that he isn't ready, then you find some slut from the side of the street to call your girlfriend?!" He yelled at me and I kept a hard glare on him.

"You're hurting him. He thinks you don't love him. He needs you right now Jason. He has people after him that will kill him. He needs protection and you provide him with that." He said calmly.

"I can't." I whispered.

"Yes, you can Jason. You guys are so in love it's unreal. He needs you Jason and you're hurting him." He whispered and patted my back.

"It's okay to break your walls Jason. He won't judge."

"Think about it Jason." And with that, he walked upstairs.