My Savior { jastin }

Chapter 4

Justin

"I don't wanna go Jase." I whined while he was pulling me out to his car, causing me to groan in annoyance.

"You're going Justin." He said in a short tone and opened my car door for me.

"This is stupid." I mumbled and sat in my seat, pouting. I crossed my arms across my chest, looking forward.

He got in the drivers side and before we pulled off, he looked at me.

"Justin," He sighed, but I kept pouting.

"Why don't you want to go?" He asked and leaned back in his seat.

"Because everyone else hates me, so why wouldn't they?" I said and turned to face him, giving him a 'duh' and he had a sad look on his face.

"They're going to love you Justin. Trust me okay." He gave me a quick kiss and started the car.

"And not everyone hates you." I shrugged to myself, looking out the window.

_

We pulled up to the rest of his gang's house and we got out.

"Ready?" He asked grabbing my hand and entwining our fingers.

I don't know why, but that made me blush.

I nodded my head and we walked down the path together.

"Yo, Jason!" Someone said and Jason dropped my hand quickly, looking at the person who had just called my name.

He did a 'bro hug' with him and did their greeting.

"This is Justin, Justin this is Ryan." Ryan smiled at me and we did our own hand shake.

"Nice to meet you man." Ryan said, a twinkle in his blue eyes.

After I was introduced to the rest of his gang, I felt more comfortable with them.

Charlie was the quietest, and the oldest. He got onto Jason a lot, but he was still fun.

Bruce and Ryan, they were just as loud as Jason. They were funny and all around, good people.

He still hasn't told them about us though, I can tell he's been trying to avoid it.

I guess I understand, I would be ashamed of me too.

_

"Told you they would like you." Jason said once we got back to his house, both of us taking off our shoes.

"Yep." I faked a yawn and took of my shirt, already crawling into his bed.

After our first date, I decided to sleep in his bed. Simply because it's more comfortable.

"Babe, what's the matter?" I shook my head, my words being mumbled in the mattress.

"Nothing." I lied and laid my head down further in the pillow, laying on my side as far away from his side as possible.

Why wouldn't he tell them? Plus, he totally ignored me the whole time we were there.

He is ashamed of me.

He's ashamed of me because I'm weak, stupid, and a freak.

Everyone's embarrassed to be around me. I felt him lay down on his side of the way and I turned over so my back was facing him.

"Baby, seriously." He sounded so desperate. "What did I do?" Oh, he has the decency to ask that. Like, is he serious?

"Nothing Jason, I'm tired." I snapped at him and I heard him sigh.

He turned off his lamp and I got more comfortable on the bed.

"I'm sorry boo." Was the last thing I heard before I fell asleep.

I woke up and noticed that I was wrapped in Jason's arms. He had soft snores coming from his mouth while he slept.

I slipped out of his hold without waking him. I had school today which I am not looking forward to.

I took a quick shower and brushed my teeth before I used Jason's gel to fix my hair.

I grabbed my gray skinnies and a white v neck, with my brother's dog tags.

Putting on a hoodie after, Jason's hoodie.

By the time I was finished getting dressed I had 20 minutes to get to school.

I grabbed my book bag and slipped my new phone that Jason bought me in my pocket.

He made sure I had a brand new phone after my other broke.

I noticed him starting to wake up while I was putting on my blue vans.

"Do you need a ride?" He sat up and asked in his sexy morning voice.

"No." I said and walked out of his room without saying another word.

Don't want him to get embarrassed by being seen dropping me off at school do I?

_

I stepped into the chilly air. I was going to be late for school since I'm walking now.

As I was walking I saw families sitting together and talking with each other.

Laughing and smiling.

I wish I had that.

But no, I've been gone for over a month and they haven't even reported me missing yet.

Guess they meant what they said when they didn't want me around.

Jason

After Justin left I sat in my bed confused.

He didn't give me a kiss goodbye or really even talk to me.

Last night he seemed so upset.

I don't like it when he's upset with me, even though that's the first time.

It makes me feel empty and sad.

I tried thinking about what I could have done wrong.

He seemed fine when I took him to meet my gang yesterday...

Justin

"Look at the little fag." Chris yelled at me and I looked up to see everyone laughing at me.

"Heard you ain't living with your parents anymore Bieber." He said shoving me against a locker, not even getting a reaction from me.

"Funny that your own parents are embarrassed by you." He laughed and everyone else cackled behind him.

"I mean who wouldn't be embarrassed by you.

You're stupid, a faggot, a freak, an idiot, annoying. You disgust me just by looking at you." He spat and I felt my stomach twist.

I was right. He was right. Everyone truly is ashamed of me.

Even my own boyfriend.