Success: Motivator

Masks

I need a new reason to not be alone,
The darkness is trying so hard to break my bone,
I've become a frozen stone,
Thrown without a reason to pick up the phone.

I've been trying to stay human but masks will never disappear,
Every time I upon my mouth they just appear,
I have my own story that they need to hear,
But a mere memory flashes and I fear my tear.

Fears of what might happen if I care,
Been alone since I was a kid, finding it hard to share,
And not my past masks I mean my present heir,
A memory builds up those hard to climb stairs.

A heart that has been shattered to pieces,
Every year the pain just increases,
Lost my grandad before I knew what disease is,
Before birth the number of people around me decreases.

Left my parents behind to live in peace,
Fount new friends that made me feel in ease,
But in a mere two years our relationship had to cease,
And my heart was broken again to another piece.

A new place surrounded by darkness,
At this time my world was hopeless,
I was so armless,
And so close to being heartless.

I tries so hard to create a happy home,
But a loved one dying threw me back into the dome,
Failed relationships made me feel like I'm in Rome,
What I have might even be a syndrome.

I have to fight for a breathe of air,
I have just built a stable chair,
I finally have a safe lair,
I have people with whom I can share.

I kid myself without realizing which mask is on,
I fight for the soul that is gone,
Never realizing that it is nowhere to be found, none.
Never realizing what I have stepped upon.

Will I ever break from this curse?
I wonder as I write this verse,
This was made from my worse,
When will this darkness immerse?