It has been three days since I found out about the miscarriage. I've barely left my room cause I wanted to be alone.
I had texted Abby to tell her that I was busy with work and couldn't make it. It hurt to do so but I know that if I saw her I'd just start crying.
Kyle had tried to talk to me at first but then realised that I wasn't going to so he left me alone.
I've been sat here on the floor looking at the sonogram of our baby. We didn't tell anyone cause we wanted to keep it to ourselves for a while, our little secret.
I ran my fingers over the picture remembering when she told me the news.
I was sat in my office doing some work while Abby was in the other room doing something.
I felt her wrap her arms around my shoulders and kiss my cheek causing me to smile "are you finished yet?"
I looked up at her and kissed her nose "why? Got something better to do?"
She hummed and kissed my neck before unwrapping her arms "I want to show you something"
I smirked and dropped the manuscript. I lightly tugged on her shirt "please have some sexy lingerie under here"
She slapped my hands away which made me pout "aw baby c'mon"
She pushed me away with a laugh "calm your hormones" I groaned and kissed her neck a few times "you know I can't when I'm with you"
"I was going to show you this but I think you need a cold shower first"
I pulled back enough to see what she was holding. I took it from her and unfolded it.
My eyes widened at it.
I looked back to her seeing a nervous look on her face. A huge smile made its way onto my face as I wrapped my arms around her and lifted her up.
"You're pregnant?!"
Abby laughed as I kissed all over her face. I kissed her nose and rested our foreheads together.
"When'd you find out?" She wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me on the lips "this morning"
I kissed her repeatedly "I love you"
I then knelt down and lifted up her shirt. I kissed just above her belly button "and I love you so much little one"
That day was the best day of my life. We've spoken about having a family before but agreed to start after we got married but then our little bundle of joy happened and we were both so happy.
Some people would've said that we were too young but we've been together since we were eighteen. We're in love and were ready.
I looked at my phone when it beeped and frowned at the date.
Abby's mum died this day three years ago.
I was tempted to call or go to her place but I know her and she'd want to be alone.
She always did that. She'd close herself off for a while before she'd come over to me and we'd sit there all day, with her in my arms.
I finally stood up and decided to go see her to make sure she's okay. She might say she wants to be alone but she doesn't.
I quickly got dressed and made my way to the front door. I opened it surprised to see Abby on the doorstep.
She looked like she was about to leave but her head shot up when the door opened.
She looked at me with tears in her eyes "I- I don't know why I came here"
I didn't say anything, I just opened my arms. She let out a sob as she walked over and fell into my arms. She gripped onto my shirt as she cried into my neck.
I walked her into the living room and helped her sit down on the couch but she wouldn't let go off me.
I sat down next to her and let her curl into me as she cried into my chest. I kept my arm around her as my other ran up and down her back.
"What happened?" I already know but I need her to trust me again.
"M-my mom..." She couldn't even finish her sentence as a another sob left her. I kissed the top of her head and pulled her closer.
And this was how we spent the rest of the day. After all the crying she had fallen asleep so I placed a blanket over us so she wouldn't get cold.
My hand never stopped playing with her hair as I watched her sleeping.
I looked up when the front door closed and put a finger to my lips as Kyle walked into the room. His eyes widened briefly before leaving the room.
I heard her breathing change so I knew she was awake but we both didn't move.
"How long was I asleep?" I leant forward to get my phone out of my back pocket to see the time "nearly three hours"
I kissed the top of her head "I'm going to get you a drink" I walked into the kitchen to get her a glass of water, however when I walked back into the room Kyle was there.
I sat down next to her again and handed the glass to her. Kyle smiled at her and put his hand out "I'm Kyle, Harry's best mate"
Abby shook his hand with a slight smile "I'm Abby" Kyle winked at her.
"Are you Harry's girlfriend?"
Abby nearly choked on her drink as she stared at him with wide eyes as I was shaking my head at him.
Abby shook her head but was blushing which made me grin.
"No I'm not"
"Are you sure? He's talks about you a lot" it was my turn look at him crazily "leave now"
He laughed, throwing his head back before leaving us alone.
I scratched my neck "sorry about him" Abby laughed "Jake's the same"
She looked out the window and sighed "I better go"
She went to stand up but I quickly grabbed her hand "you can stay here tonight"
She opened her mouth but I spoke first "it's already late and I know you didn't drive here"
She squeezed my hand before sitting back next to me "okay"
I ordered us a pizza and Kyle joined us as we watched a few movies. We were sat so close together but I kept my hands to myself. Halfway through one of the movies I felt her grab my hand and I squeezed here lightly as she rested her head on my shoulder.
When the movie ended, Abby was already asleep. I'm happy that we managed to get her mum off her mind for a while.
I picked her up, saying goodnight to Kyle before walking into my room and placing her on my bed.
I was tempted to change her into one of my shirts but decided not to since she'll freak out.
Instead I gently shook her shoulder until she woke up. She unwillingly sat up as I handed her one of my shirts and pointed to my bathroom.
Once she was in there I got dressed and sat at the end of the bed, waiting for her.
I looked up when the bathroom door opened and my heart skipped a beat with her standing there in my shirt.
I stood up and pointed to the door "I'll sleep on the couch"
As I walked past her she grabbed my hand and turned me around "you can sleep in your own bed as well"
I let her drag me to the bed and got in. Once I was on my back she hesitated before resting her head on my chest.
"Why does this feel normal?" My arms tightened around her as she looked up at me.
"Because it is"
She leant in and for a second I was going to let my guard down but I pulled back.
The look on her face is killing me.
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FanfictionHis girlfriends death changed him. But what happens when the truth comes out? What happens if she never died?