Cari
I know I have no right to feel angry at Josh for wanting to be with Johanna or Jones getting a girlfriend I messed that up and I except full consequences of me foolish moronic self.
After that night Josh has kind of changed his behavior towards me I just don't know why every time I asked him if Johanna was the girl he always spoke about to me his eyes would became overshadowed completely his face a tone complementary to of a stone he would just ignore me after that like I hadn't asked him.
I don't know why I feel so hurt by Josh's behavior I guess it's cause I love him but Rani thinks other wise she thinks it's cause I interrupted him getting some to lose his virginity but I think not Josh wouldn't be angry at that would he it feels like we have lost our spark that brings us together because he never comes home with me anymore he never kisses my cheek and gives me reassuring hugs that everything is going to be ok.
He just seems distant even though I tell him to love Johanna even if she has been a total bitch towards me since primary it's ok I understand about love we can't stop who we love, he still won't listen he still won't treat like before I even asked him about it and all he does is shrug I guess that's his way of telling me to stay away from him then I will I can see he doesn't want me as his dead wait again.
Now about Jones I don't even know what to do because it seems he wants to hurt me repeatedly by showing of Calissa infront of me everyday kissing on her holding her in ways I wanted to be held I guess these are repercussions to turning him down.
My life feels like it's in turmoil I.have everyone around me but everyone seems not to notice me yet again this reminds me if back home again without friends with a purpose other than take care of Terry but Terry is not even an option because she is now Terry Kate the most independent woman I know taking care of me her and everything around us.
I just don't know what to do about everything right now I can't speak to Rani because she's happy right now with Peniel and I don't want to bother her or disturb that romance they are having now. I guess I understand Johanna for calling me miss negativity because that's what im going to be spreading for months
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Problematic Me By Cari Kate
RomanceCari Kate is a sixteen year old girl, who has so many problems because creating other problems is a way of a solution to another. She thinks the big move happening in her life will help stop these problems. Can it? if she keeps causing more♥
