Problematic Me By Cari Kate

Chapter 28

Josh's and Cari's POV

What the hell didnt she get the message I didnt want her near me she just doesn't give up I told her to stop what she was doing but she wouldn't she had invaded all my space until I almost gave in.

I know I said some harsh words to get her to stop it hurt me so badly but I had to stop her probing me for answers I couldn't give her I just couldn't. she looked so broken I wanted to hold her I wanted to show her how much I loved her but she just wanted what we used to have.

I couldn't give her that I wanted more and i wasnt sure she was ready to provide me that if she was  still hung over Jones and still thought I wanted Johanna.

Cari
Ok I said to myself as I was walking over to joshs place to meet mr Wills to leave my package for Josh in his room.  I want up knocked and mr Wills was never surprised to see me

And he said "ah Cari I was about to leave so here are the house keys bye".

I guess he assumed Josh had finally invited me after our struggle with him and oh no what will Josh think when he finds me here? Oh my word his going to think im a freak and I can't leave now that I have the keys im so in trouble ok im just going to wait him out.

I just didn't want to hear or remember what he had said to me yesterday so I will just run out when his here, is what I thought I guess It was very naive of me.

When Josh arrived I didn't even know what to do he didn't see me at first when he entered the house obviously he was oblivious of what was happening around him until I fake coughed to get his attention and his face turned stone cold like he was about to beat me up

Josh
I didn't know what to do what was she doing in here dad obviously oh my word what am I to do I thought while standing there glaring at her as best as I could but she wouldn't barge she actually had seemed so frightened of me as if I was going to do something horrid to her.

Cari
I couldn't move so I just stared until her said

"What the hell aren't you tired gosh what do you want from me stop tormenting me please".

I didn't know what he meant so I stammered my response please listen yo... your da.. dad left me yo... yo.. house keys I handed them to him he didn't take them but keep staring then after an awkward silence which felt like it lasted over an eternity he asked

"What do you want", it felt like a rhetorical question but I.heard myself saying I want you Josh you Infact I need you

It's as if what I said hurt him in some sort because his face turned into a mask of sordid pain I couldn't handle that so I want to him pulled him to me and I kissed him

I kissed him so passionately it surprised even me it surprised him because he dropped his bag and his eyes opened up as in what are you doing sort of way so I stopped stepped back and apologised for acting like a fool and was about to blot when a hand so firm and authority held me back and looked at me as if I had delivered him of a burden.

Josh
Wait I thought did she just kiss me like that or was it me who went after her but she beat me to it by saying she was sorry and was about to run for it but I wouldn't let her I couldn't so I pulled her back to me and looked at her I looked and realized she was seeing through me like she always did and all I wanted to do was kiss her like she did me so I did.

I kissed her I held her face between my hand I thrust my tongue into her mouth I made our tongues make love to each other if there ever is anything like that. She put her hands onto my neck I lifted her lifts up my waist I held unto her waist we were touching in ways I never thought we would. 

I put her up on the couch her hands were exploring my chest they were brushing against my pants I couldn't stop myself i wanted to take her like I wanted to take Johanna but this was worse because it was Cari this time.