Why does it always seem like I'm in the way of other people's growth. Like if I make one wrong step they'll see it and leave. But I guess my main fear is for people to leave that's why I keep my guard up until I see your intentions.
I would never try to hurt anyone because I know how that feels. I know how it feels to wait and wait and wait and wait, but all for nothing and then get hurt in the end. I'm not cruel. What I mean by that is if I have ever told someone I love them it wasn't a lie it was spoken from the heart every time. But it's hard for me to give in and listen to my heart anymore. My brain won't let me I've been hurt too much.
To give in to this "love" emotion take a whole lot of strength for me; someone has told me they love me and that was the reason why they did something really bad to me. But hey, they said they loved and that was their reason. Even till this day I'm scared of that person and love. I can't bring myself to say it out loud. I can say it any other way and mean it but I know if I say it out loud I'll hurt everything I've been holding in and everything I've stored in these walls I have. I'm scared that when I voice it out loud it'll be to the wrong person and they'll leave, but then again that is my fear after all is the fear of being hurt and all the people I've said I loved to leave. LOVE is only two letters off from LOST. Once your lost its hard to love.
This is how life has turned out for me and for all my peoples out their what I've said to you doesn't change this is only the feeling behind it.
You guys give me my strength. So, if your willing to stay I'm willing to open up Love You Guys💖💖💖🎀
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Lost
Non-FictionYou walking around your school and you see her. The happiest, most brightest girl ever smiling and laughing about. You think to yourself, "I wonder where she gets all this happiness", with the way she bounces around. Then suddenly you look in her ey...
