Lost

Tired

I know my friends are out there reading this and are like how could this girl be so happy and say really deep shit. It's because I've been tired for the longest and haven't had a chance to express myself. I've been holding it all in and now it's coming out; more like pouring out like water, the words I feel. All that happy go lucky girl shit has been an act half of the time. No one could be that happy everyday already knowing what hell their day is going to be because of the conflict of the mind and soul.

Don't get me wrong I am a pretty happy person just not much on some days. Like on gloomy days I try to take in the bad information and push it out but it stays here in my heart until I deal with it. And if I don't deal with it, then it ends up overflowing and coming out all at the same time and is just a disaster. So if I ever say I'm tired I don't mean sleepy and you might want to find out what is wrong so I won't hold that anger and sadness in.

Then again who would I tell if I was going through something, probably only me, myself, and I; I wouldn't want to be a burden you know; don't want to bother people with my problems. I'd rather hold it all in and deal with it when I feel it about to overflow. I'm the type of person who doesn't like to rely on people point, blank, period.