Supernatural Imagines

34. The Letter (Need to Know (Dean) Part. 2)

Okay so first off...

to how many reads, and requests I got for this chapter.

This was requested by a lot, so the next few chapters will be dedicated to them, they are -

Musicgirl553

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and the original dedication came from - ErinSwann

Thank you all for requesting, and here is the second part to "Need to Know)

BTW ITS RAINING RN AND THAT'S THE PERFECT WEATHER FOR WRITING, AND OMG I'M SO EXCITED...

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Your daughter's mouth went dry, as she looked at the letter and Dean, back and forth.

"I'm sorry that I didn't tell you sooner, I just.. was waiting for you to want to know," Dean spoke his voice fairly hoarse. There were marks down his face where the tears had previously fallen.

Very slowly, and carefully your daughter ripped open the envelope.

She glanced over it, entranced by the writing.

"I just," (Y/K/N)'s mouth was slightly gaped,"I'll read it later," and she smiled a sad smile. She sat your letter down on the coffee table, and headed to grab the dinner Sam had left out.

Dean didn't follow her, so she waited in the kitchen until she knew he was in bed. After grabbing a small pint of ice cream, and a spoon, she grabbed the letter and snuck into her room.

On the walls were pictures of you, Dean, Sam, Bobby, Charlie, Kevin, Jo and Ellen, even Bela. She had lived a happy life, but a feeling of emptiness sat in her stomach.

Once she changed into comfortable clothes, she settled down with her legs cross on the bed. The letter was sitting in front of her. Every time she thought about reaching for it, something stopped her.

Eventually, she just shook her head, and snatched the letter up. She slowly pulled the letter out of the ripped envelope..

She breathed deep, and began reading.

Dear (Y/K/N),

........ What do I even say?

You don't know me. I don't know if Dean will have told you about me. Even though you are my daughter, and I love you more than anything on this planet, you don't know me. You may see it as I abandoned you.. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. I'm sure, if they have said anything, your father, and uncle have told you that I'm perfect, strong, beautiful, going on, and on.

Those are lies. Every time I gave up something of mine, so someone else could live? That wasn't me being selfless. I was selfish.

I'm making myself seem like a bad person, let's start from the beginning.

Hi, I'm your mom.

I would hope your dad at least told you the basic stuff about me, if not I'll haunt him. That was a pretty bad joke.

Anyways, I'm not funny, I'm selfish, I can't cook to save my life, and I'm insane.

I'm trying not to cry as I write this letter, because I need you to know who I really am.. was..

I will bet $1000 that your dad didn't tell you how I died. Well, I'm sure you know that both your uncle, and dad have been to Hell and back.

And I was too. But, the difference between us is that they could handle it, and I couldn't. I had nightmares every night, hallucinations, and just.. I couldn't handle it. I praise Sam and Dean for doing it, how I'm not sure.

I made a deal with Crowley, the king of hell, to save your father. It's a long story, and I know I don't have long before you wake up from your nap, or before your father does.

Now, I'm sorry.

I can't describe how sorry I am in these days coming down. I have a month left with the most amazing man on Earth, with the most beautiful and fun baby girl, and with the tallest moose ever.

I'm sorry I won't be there to help you with the heartbreaks, driving, and doing mom things together. But, to be honest, if you use our Ouija board I'll probably answer.

I keep joking and that's how I get through this. I look at your beautiful green eyes, and I see your father. I can already tell you'll be so amazing.

I'm sorry..

Here the words were blurred with dried tear drops. Your daughter couldn't help the tears that were running down her face.

This is the hardest thing I've ever done.

I need to go now baby girl, but please know that you are loved, and beautiful.

Remember to always keep fighting, because you are not alone,

I love you,

Mom

Sobs wracked your daughters body as she held the letter to her chest. Sure it was everywhere, but it was enough to make her miss you like her life depended on it. She pressed her face to her bed. She looked around the room for her favorite picture.

She saw it.

Dean had his arm around your shoulder, as you lay on him. He was taking the picture, but kept his eyes on you. You looked so in love. Sam was making a silly face in the back of the picture with Cas, and you both were smiling.

It was your daughters favorite..

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There we go, I'm sorry if I'm everywhere in letters, but that's just how I am. I think it's how I would be in that situation.

Before I get to the sad part of this author's note, I want to again thank all of the people who requested this chapter. It was insanely awesome, and I hope you all enjoyed this :)

Thank you all for reading,

I love you all,

and please remember to always keep fighting because you are not alone,

kay