"Rhed. I'm so sorry, I got to fetch my brother in Horizon. Maybe, I'll be late for our date. Why are you such in a rush for this day? You seem so excited, honestly! Makes me very excited too! Well, I'll be there maybe around 9 pm. I'm with Alecsa. She and my li'l bro had an argument. So... See you later! I love you! God bless!"
-
Here I am, staring blankly at my phone. We were happy.
I know we are.
I could feel it in my heart.
I could still feel her after 8 months.
It's like I'm a breathing dead organism.
I don't want to open my eyes.
I don't want to breathe.
I want to suffocate.
I badly want to be with her.
I miss her very much.
The way she closes her eyes.
The way she smiles.
The way she moves.
The way she flips her hair.
It just took me away.
She got my heart.
Now that she's gone, I don't know what to do already.
I scroll down my camera roll, and all I could vividly see are our pictures together.
I could have at least say that I love her for the last time.
-
What is taking her too long?
It's already 9:30 pm. She's never late.
My phone rang. Tita Diana is calling.
I answered the call. I wonder why I got nervous.
"Hello, tita. Bakit po?" Kinakabahan talaga ako. Why?
"Rhed, iho! Naaksidente sila Jane! Alam mo ba yung bridge malapit sa Horizon? Papunta na doon ang mga p-" I cut her off.
No. This can't be happening!
I ran. I drove fast.
Why Jane? Why all of the people?
She can drive good.
No. This is not true.
This is not real.
The time I got there, the responders were exactly there too.
They pulled the car out.
I can see Jane, the side where she is, had the door opened.
We pulled the car. Faster!
When the wheels are back on the ground, I pulled her out, the authority shouted at me that I might get her at the wrong position. But, either ways, I handled her correctly.
Her both feet were cut. Fuck.
I could still marry her even if she can't walk.
She's got bleeding face.
No. She's not dead. She can't be dead.
I looked at the rescuers helping the girl and Carl. I don't know what happened to Carl, but the girl, maybe Alecsa, have a pipe at her chest, I don't know if she will survive.
Jane moved. I looked at her. She's still alive!
I was about to call the rescuers when...
"Rhed. I will die tonight." No.
"You are not going to die. KUYA! BUHAY PA 'TONG GIRLFRIEND KO!" I was shouting at them! Come on!
"No. Rhed, I'll die." I'm crying now while caressing her bloody face.
"I lo-ove you..." She's out of breathe. Out of blood.
"You can't do this to me! Wake up" Again! I called the responders.
"Be happy." Shit! No!
Then the rescuers came and pushed me to get her.
I could see someone screaming inside.
"Mamatay siya, Sir, kung hihilahin natin sa puso niya yung tubo." One of them shouted.
"Putulin natin 'yung tubo, then saka natin siya dalhin sa ospital." And that's what they did.
Tumingin ulit ako sa ambulansiya na pinagsakayan ni Jane.
Sinarado na nila ang pinto.
I looked into my blood stained body from her.
This can't be.
-
"We need your decision now. I know this is hard." The doctor said to a man and a woman. I guess they are the parents of Alecsa.
"What other options do we have?" Sabi no'ng lalaki. The mother is crying hard.
"She needs heart. Her heart is weak."
Umiiyak na sila ng lubusan.
"Doc, may pwede ba tayong pagkuhanan ng puso?" A younger man told them.
"Meron po. Yung isa po nilang kasama na dead on arrival. I know, her heart is undamaged." Nagkatinginan ang dalawang mag-asawa.
"We'll talk to her parents."
-
Pwede na daw bumisita. I want to see her. It's been 2 months that she's bed ridden.
I want to see her.
Kahit man lang ang bagong nagmamay-ari ng puso niya makita ko.
As I turned the door knob, the flashbacks were rewinding in my mind.
I love her. I love Jane. So much.
She was real.
