Ferocious Flames

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Natsume rushed towards me and worriedly asked,"are you alright?!" I couldn't answer him directly. All I did was scream and shout and cry and groan.
"it's paining." I said something at last with a shrieking voice. He clutched my thigh and said,"we're just going to reach. Don't worry."
but the thing was that the way felt so long as if Japan drowned and our pilot doesn't know where to land now. All this while natsume hugged me so that I could hold him tightly to feel the pain less. Was that helping?! I was still screaming. But I also did hold him so tightly that I bet it must be painful for him as well. But right now I couldn't make myself more aware about anyone else's pain. I already had enough.
"we've landed." he said as we landed and then he rushed out with me in his arms. Fortunately, there was a car outside. We hurriedly sat in and then he told the driver to go to hospital as fast as he could. I just didn't realise that we also have to get to a hospital after the landing of the plane. Shit!! Where's the hospital now?!
"we're just there, don't worry." he kept on saying but it didn't help the pain. Why can't I get unconscious just as it happens in film?! The pain was so excruciating as if all my nerve cells were present only at that region of my leg. I heard that we can distract our brain with other painful region of the body but for that you gotta hit somewhere and I was so helpless that I couldn't even think about walking to some place where I could hit myself. God...just.. Just...take out this leg. Cut it!!! Right now anything was better than this pain. I read the other day that pain is good as it reminds you that you're living!! Go hell with this living!! It doesn't reminds you that you're living but it tells you that you're going to die. The pain felt even more. I think I dislocated the already broken bone.

Don't ask me what happened before this because even the memory of it is so painful. Right now I laid on a hospital bed again. They had given me pain killers but yet their needles felt as if scratching my bone again and again. But it was better than before. Really better. So now I had this plaster AGAIN and I was advised to rest more AGAIN. And I thought of compensating for 4 hour loss!!
I slept and slept and slept. After 7 hours of complete sleeping I finally woke up. I couldn't stay like that anymore. I wanted to stretch, stand and run but I was restricted to do all of them. I saw natsume still sitting near my bed in a small chair. He was busy in his phone. Actually, I wasted his time as well.
"I'm sorry." he looked at me and realized that I was now awake.
"ah?!"
"for wasting your time like this."
"I don't mind it. I can handle half of my work even from here." oh? So now I felt sorry for myself!
"it was a stupid idea." he said while still working on in his phone.
"ah?"
"walking without crutches." so he noticed that I didn't use crutches only that once. I blushed with embarrassment.
"natsume, will you do me a favour?" I called out after a while.
"huh? Say..I'm listening." he wa still busy though.
"please dont tell anyone about this. Not even Mr yagami. " he now looked at me with a surprised look and asked,"why? I noticed it even there. Nobody's going to blame you for this. It was just an accident. "
"as if somebody cares. It'll be just a week- gossip and then it's over." I lied. I was now aware that this was not just a mere coincident. It just can't be! And it wasn't my lack of driving skills either! There was some technical problem in the car, perhaps it's brakes. They weren't working. And I was also aware that the person who's trying to kill me knows my location and maybe had been following me. I didn't want to show myself vulnerable to not only that person but everyone. Showing vulnerable will just increase this person's luck and chances to come for me again. But then I couldn't tell natsume all about this and so I lied.
He started working again and said without looking at me,"fine. I won't tell. But it is quite noticeable, don't you think?! "
"I have to sit all day. So I don't think anyone's gonna notice."
"hmm.."
So now he sat and was busy at a distance away and I had nothing to do. I had already slept for four hours but now I couldn't sleep anymore.
"what are you doing though?" I broke the pin drop silence in the room finally.
"nothing important. " he said. I wonder what kind of addicting thing he was doing. It absorbed him so efficiently that right now the passive me envied him.
He looked at me as if he just realized something and asked,"getting bore?"
I nodded and he sat beside me.
"want to play? " he showed me the game in his phone. Some fighting game,huh?!
"you weren't working, were you?!"
He smiled and said,"technically, I'm working."
He showed me how to play. He was playing a game similar to assassin warrior. Just the difference was that it was faster. So although it was supposed to be played by just a single person, but both us played. He sure couldn't go to the next level. As it turned out it was more difficult than assassin warriors. Well as i fought up against the pros it was nearly impossible for me to collect the rewards and weapons to go to the next level. So as i played, he kept on collecting the important things that were displayed at some corner of the screen. And soon, actually after 2 hours of continously playing we reached the next level.
"god this game! Who can crack it alone?!" I said just as we were done with the first level.
"some did and we finally did."
After completing it I felt so proud of myself as I I've got my name written on Guinness book. Though I did it with his help but I managed somehow. We played it till the end till we got to the level 7 which was the final level. It was now near 3 am and we were still playing. I could feel the dark circles widening beneath my eyes and yawning that I suppressed till hours. We both were like this. The last level was taking unusual time not because it was super difficult but we both were super sleepy. After every few minutes one of us knocked down to sleep and the other would wake another and then then latter slept and former would wake the latter. This continued till I don't know when. But I remember sleeping and not waking up again after few seconds by him. Not that I wanted to sleep but it was now beyond my control.

I woke up surprisingly early just after 3 hour sleep. Maybe because I slept enough all day. Or maybe because of the extra warmth. Natsume was just underneath me. We slept just like we sat. My head rested on his chest. It's not the first time we're this close after he came back. But it's the first time I've realized it. I dont know why but memories of yesterday suddenly filmed in my brain. The way he hurried towards me and held me as tight as he could around my thigh and then how he supported me in the car while coming to the hospital. I was right now starring at his sleepy face. He seemed tired and the same as 6 years ago. He had just become more beautiful. There was maturity in his face unlike 6 years ago. I brushed his hair back and felt a chill running across my body.
"you do care for me, don't you?!"
"not as a boss but as me." my fingers ran through his cheeks. Surprisingly,our touch became more contrasting. Either he was too cold and I was too warm or he was so warm and I was so cold.
"I don't want to belive what gray said to me or what other employees say. Please tell me if you're still the same."
Maybe my touch disturbed him and I saw his eyes twitching.