Message to My Lovely Fans + Random Rants

Hello, hello! :]

First off, I want to apologize for my lack of activity lately. I know that I shouldn't make excuses, and that it's been inexcusable for how long I've been absent. You should know that I do have school issues, plus an awful cold that's been spreading around lately. At least, I think it's been spreading. It started off as allergies for me, then eventually somehow I caught a cold. No matter, I am still sick. I really do want to work on my stories too, but every writer gets writer's block. For me, I get it so often it's extremely frustrating. I know I'm making excuses again, and I'm sorry. Do know that I still think of you guys when I'm at school. I worry about my story while doing homework. School is a priority though.

Second, I want you guys to know that at the moment, I am in no position to continue writing. I'll still try to squeeze in a couple sentences every now and then, but I don't have the time to write full chapters and post. I barely have enough time to make this message. In fact, I'm taking time off of doing my homework just to type this out. I'll try to go on Wattpad as often as I can, but I can't promise anything. Also, if you guys are online and see me, then just go ahead and say hi. I'm awfully lonely and awkward just staring at my profile.

Third, this is a bit more personal. Do you ever find something that you really seem to enjoy? But you feel that it's a bit too late, that you're just too old to start learning? Does it scare you when you think about it? Thoughts such as: "Oh, my gosh. She's so good at this. I wish I was as good as she was. I wish I could take lessons. I'm so old though. There's no way I could do it. I really like it though. I want to do this. I can't. I can't. I can't." I've been thinking that so often lately it makes me want to cry. There are things that I really love, but I struggle to see if I really want to do it, or if this is just a phase. Then again, nothing is ever just a phase with me.

I actually stopped halfway through this to take a shower. I can breathe a little easier now, so my mood has lifted. In fact, I want all my fans to see this, so that they know that I am most not dead, but I'm struggling with finding time to write. Also, tell your fellow fans to read this, I don't want to repeat myself.

One last thing before I post this. I hate to sound like I'm doing this to get comments, because I'm not, I'm really just curious. What do you think is wrong with me? After reading this post, after reading my statuses and messages, what do you think is happening to me?

Yours Truly.