Message to My Lovely Fans + Random Rants

Those People We Call "Friends" + Walls.

I'm pretty sure that everyone's had someone like this. You know, that person who is kinda your friend, but not really. It's not like you hate them or anything, no, you wouldn't go that far. It's just that sometimes you get irritated with them too easily, and it's natural, so don't think badly of yourself. You know that deep inside, they're really not that terrible of a person though, just that for some reason, you can't fully like them.

So you're kinda their "friend" now, as I like to think of it. You hang out with them, but you don't really trust them and your friendship only goes so far. Well, for me, I have major trust issues. At the moment, I can't think of a single person I can really trust. My best friend, I've given her a little bit of trust, and she's done the same, but we both know that we don't trust each other completely. 

Things I do trust her on though are:

1. Protecting me when the zombies attack [she has a zombie survival guide].

2. Keeping any secrets or gossip that I might hear and decide to pass on to her [a big thing for me, since I like keeping my own secrets].

3. My writing [I trust her to edit and collaborate with me on my projects].

4. Holding onto my treasures [also known as my collection of obsessions].

5. Homework [any work we do at school, I feel as if I can always share them with her. Don't think that she's copying off of me or anything, because the feeling is mutual. We work together].

Can you think of who I'm talking about? I'm pretty sure a bunch of fans know this girl.

Anyway, I'm kinda off track right now. The fact is that you won't be able to like everyone in the world, no matter how hard you try. You act peaceful and friendly, but not to the extent where you want them to think of you as a friend. When they get too close, you try and push them away a bit. You need space. You also know that they are not to be trusted [like I said, I have trust issues]. Sure, you can hang out with them, talk lightly, but you try to never reveal yourself. Everyone builds walls instead of bridges. It's to protect yourself. There are cracks sometimes, for the people you know like you for you. But mostly, you don't break down your walls. At least, I would never. I'm civil with people, but I am always suspicious of them. Maybe it's from reading too many books, but that's how I am.

Though this is a bit off topic, you know when people talk behind your back? Many people say, "I hate it when people talk behind other's back."

I think you people are hypocrites. I'm sorry if I'm offending you, but would you dare say to me that you've never done it? I admit, I have talked about others behind their backs. I am not perfect and would never wish to be. Imperfection is a blessing. It makes every single person individual.

Everyone hates it when you hear that your friend's been talking about you. Let me change that. "Friend." I'm talking about that person who isn't really your friend, just an acquaintance. To be honest, you're really that surprised. That's why you've never really trusted them in the first place, you know they'll talk.

I actually have to stop soon, so I'll just put this out there. I know sometimes it's hard to distinguish between your real friends and your "friends." I'll just say that it's okay to have them both. We're not perfect. Just know that once you have found a true friend, as cliché as this sounds, you have to hold onto them. Let them know you care. Give them gifts every now and then. I mean, who doesn't like gifts? 

And remember. If you need to talk or rant like I'm doing, feel free to drop a comment or message. If you ask some of the people who message me, I normally reply.

Which means two things:

1. I need to get a life.

2. You guys mean something to me.

Anyway, I'm going to post this now. My fingers ache from typing so much.

LC.