My Brothers Bestfriend (NARRY AU)

3.2 | Breaking Point

Trigger warning down below
Niall
Weeks are passing by so fast, and to believe today's the last day until Christmas break was an understatement. I'm rarely ever at home, and to Liam, Harry and I are just best friends. Harry has me studying so much lately and I can't wait to take a break for two weeks and then to finish this English course after the break because I was ready.
"So are you pumped for the break?" Mr.Lockwood asked our class as he stood on his podium. The class answer back with cheers and some groans. I just looked over towards Harry as he's smiling about something he's thinking about. He's so adorable. I turn my attention back onto to Mr.Lockwood.
"Well class, today we'll just be reading some short story about Christmas." There were groans echoing all over the class room. One of those groans being me.
"I know, Short stores they really suck." Mr.Lockwood steps down from his podium and makes his way around the classroom to hand out the sheet. This was going to be a boring last day, I can feel it.
Luckily the day went by surprisingly fast and I was now sat in the passenger seat of Harry's car with our hands interlocked. Something was off today and I couldn't tell what was going through Harry's mind. His mood is off, like he won't look me directly in the eyes and he's just pecking my lips making it quick and short, he barley grips my hand. It's me doing all the work today to be close to him and it just puts me off and kinda makes me feel a little lonely.
I don't like this feeling and I wanted to figure out what was running through his mind.
"Um Harry?"
"Hmm," he glances at me quickly and turns his attention back on the road.
"What's up?" I smile weakly.
"What do you mean?" He doesn't look at me this time instead he releases my hand and puts both hands on the steering wheel.
"You just seem a little off today, was wondering what's going on.." I trail this was so nerve wracking.
"I'm just not in the mood today Niall, why don't I just drop you off at home?" I wanted to cry, right now. This was kinda heart breaking, but hey if he needed to figure his shit out then I'm not stopping him from having his alone time.
He pulled into my drive way and I didn't bother giving him a kiss goodbye or anything as he drove off down the street.
Now his shitty attitude put me in a mood. I walk up the steps of my porch and through my front door. I slip my shoes off and make my way into the kitchen where my mom sat with one of her friends. Great.
"Oh hey Niall, i didn't expect you home till late this evening," my mom smiles brightly at me.
"Yeah, Harry's in a mood."
"Oh well I hope you boys resolve whatever's going on.." She actually kinda grew to somewhat like Harry, but she fully doesn't trust us alone together.
"This is Elizabeth, you know Rose's mom."
"Um," I thought who is Rose? "Yeah.." I really didn't know who this women was, but I make my way over to the cupboard to grab a cup and pour me a glass of water.
"You know Rose, she used to live across the street when you were younger. You guys used to be best friends, even had cute little crushes on each other, you don't remember?" My mom looks at me giving me a stern look. I had no clue what she was talking about but I'll go along with it.
"Oh yes, I remember. Nice to see you again," I smile at Elizabeth and finish off my glass of water.
"Well there in town for the Christmas break, you and Rose should get together and do something! Wouldn't that be great?" My mom turns towards her friend.
"That would be great! I'll send her over sometime tonight for you two to chat,"
I didn't think I had plans tonight, because Harry cancelled. I wasn't really up for company tonight, but my mom would scowled me if I didn't agree. Which was kind of annoying cause I see where she's going with this whole thing and it's not working.
I'm in a steady relationship now and she didn't even know. I'm sure she'd be proud, if she wasn't such a homophobic bitch. (Sorry for the language).
I nod at my mom and make my way up stairs to my bedroom. I didn't know if I should catch up on sleep or do my homework. Well I did have a whole 2 weeks to do it. So i'm going with the first option.
I tuck myself under my blankets and ready to shut my eyes, as I get 2 seconds into resting my eyes. My phones goes off, great.
I peak my eyes open and go to grab my phone to put it on do not disturb. I turn on the lock screen I read it in my head,
Harry
iMessage.
What the fuck did he want? I slide my phone on and read the text message sent from Harry.
Harry: I'm sorry.
Yeah he better be sorry.
Niall: are you out of your pissy mood yet?
Harry: I'm coming over.
Fuck. In seconds my door bell was being ring and I rushed down the stairs before my mom or Elizabeth could answer. By the time I get down there Harry is stood at the door with my mom and Elizabeth, great.
"Oh Harry, Niall is up stai-" they all turn towards me as I'm half way down the stairs. "Spoke too soon," my mom laughs. "Come in."
Harry steps in, and I'm fully down the stairs by now.
"Niall who's this handsome young lad?" Elizabeth asks, smiling.
"This is Harry," my boyfriend. "Harry this is a family friend, Elizabeth."
"Pleasure to meet you," Harry shakes Elizabeth's hand and after that whole fiasco's I grab Harry's hand and drag him up the stairs.
When were in my room, I shut the door and lock it. When I turn around Harry has me pressed up against the door giving me a sloppy kiss. He was upset and there was no way he was gonna use me like this.
"Wait, Harry." I push him back by his chest. He doesn't meet my eyes again. What was actually going on with him lately?
"Niall I'm so sorry for being a douche bag," he pleads as he tries to come onto me again by kissing my neck. I push him back again, and this angers him as he slams his hand against the wall by my head.
"Harry!" I shout, he's not looking at me, until he looks up and we hold stares for a while until this fully breaks him and he's now crying. He breaks down right in front of me as he falls and crashes to the ground.
"Niall I'm so sorry!" He cries. I bend down to face him as I wrap my arms around his body. My poor little Haz.
"Shh, just cry Harry. It helps if you let it all out," I rub circles on his back as he's still sniffling and crying in my arms. "C'mon Harry, let's move to my bed."
Harry stood up with me as I move us to my bed as we take a seat. My arms are wrapped around him as he's trying to hold himself together.
Harry has officially cried it all out, as he's sitting there emotionless starring off into space. He then turn towards me, as he doesn't meet my eyes.
"Niall I'm sorry for taking out my anger in you, you honestly don't deserve any of it. I'm just frustrated with myself."
"Harry you can tell me anything, baby." He looks at me, and then throws his head in his hands.
He takes a big deep breath, "as you know my sister died when I was 9 years old." I nod, I've heard so many things about her from Liam. Harry rarely ever talked about her, actually to be completely honest I think this is the first time I've ever heard him talk about his sister.
"She died in a car crash, she was in the passenger side. I was just dropped off at a friends house, my uncle was driving the car. I lost the two most important people in my lives today just 9 years ago and I still can't get over the fact that their both gone." He pauses and swallows the lump in his throat. "No one talks about them anymore, it's like there forgotten they never existed. It's torture because that's something you talk about it, it's something you need to talk about. Because people just don't get over it and move on. Some people need to heal, and it still eats me alive till today." He was crying and whimpering and I couldn't help but wrap my arms around him as he cried.
"I'm so sorry Harry, I'm here Harry." I assure him, because he needs all the support right now.
"Niall, please do not run away or break up with me when I tell you this?" He whimpered. Why would he ever think that? It frightened me what he was about to tell me.
"Tell me baby," I whisper into his ear.
"When I was thirteen, I couldn't handle the pain as well as I thought I did.." I nod to let him know to carry on. I didn't want to hear this, but it was something I had to. I wanted to know every single part of Harry, and this is one of the parts that can't be ignored. "I started to hurt myse-," he chokes on his last words and that makes me grip onto him tighter and hold him as I rock us back and forth.
"Harry I'm here," I assure him.
"On this night 5 years ago, I tried to kill myse-" he choked again and I couldn't help the tears falling from my eyes. This was so heart breaking to listen to.
"Harry I love you so much, you know that right?" He nods his head as he hugs me just as tight as I am hugging him.
"I love you to Niall, and I just wanted to say thank you." I break the hug and turn to look at Harry, and looked him directly into his eyes. His beautiful green orbs that I'm so lucky to call home.
"What are you thankful for Harry?" I needed to know.
"Because you, you helped me see what life is all about and I couldn't thank you enough. You helped me feel grateful and thankful for still being on his planet, so thank you." I couldn't help but peck his lips quickly. It was short and sweet. "And before I came here, when I dropped you off I just had to go see my sister. So I went to the grave yard and I had a chat, and you know she wasn't there but you know I could feel her. In here," and he holds his hands over his heart, "and I thought oh my god that's the same place I have this feeling for Niall and that's the same place I felt her presence and I felt her here in my heart and then I realized the only place I feel that feeling anywhere else is when I'm with you."
My eye were so watery and I was bawling my eyes out by know.
"Harry I love you so much," I grab the side of his face as I bring his forehead to touch mine.
"I love you too Niall," he pauses, "so thank you."
I'm crying, this chapter kept me up till 2:30 a.m to write, ILYSM.
So Harry finally told Niall what he went through and yous finally found out what he really went through.