My Brothers Bestfriend (NARRY AU)

3.3 | Rose

ROSE^^^
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Harry
I was wrapped in Niall's arms as we laid in his bed. I just let him see a side of me, that I didn't want to hide from him anymore. He didn't run, he didn't try to ignore what I was telling him, he just listened and hugged me and that's all I could ever ask for from him.
It helped me a lot telling him and I couldn't be more thankful to have him in my life.
"Um Harry?" I couldn't see Niall's face, because we were currently spooning, and I was the little spoon.
"Hmm?" I hummed, as I shut my eyes.
"My mom's friend has her daughter coming over soon, and we kinda have to hang out with her." I opened my eyes, I didn't want to do anything. I just wanted to lay with him. "I can ask my mom to just reschedule."
"No it's fine," it really wasn't, but I'll go along with it.
"Are you sure?" I turned around to face Niall, as he's frowning.
"Positive," I smile and he nods.
"As much as I want to just lay here with you and cuddle, apparently I was good friends with this girls when I was younger," he explained. Seems like he doesn't remember much about her.
"What's her name?" I was curious as to who this girl was.
"Her names Rose, she honestly doesn't ring a bell at all." He explains. I just nodded.
"You don't remember anything? Like nothing?" He nods. I nodded understandingly.
"Niall?" He looks down at me.
"Hmm?" He hums.
"I'm sorry," I bit my lip.
"What are you sorry for?" He asks, and I choke.
"Well for pushing myself onto you, if you didn't stop me I don't know how I would feel with myself." I was embarrassed for my actions and I was grateful that Niall stopped whatever was gonna happen.
"Harry you were in a bad place, it was not a big deal." But it was and I would never forgive myself for taking advantage for him like that.
"Okay Niall," I was defeated and had no motivation to fight with him. "I won't take this on any further."
"Okay baby, now let's not talk. I want to just lay here with you and forgot about everything that's going on right now. Just you and me right now, got it?" I nodded, as he kissed my temple.
It seemed like minutes had gone by of us just laying there until I got severally bored and had to use the loo.
"Um Niall," he looks down at me waiting for me to reply. "I have to use the loo."
He nods, as he lets go of his hold on me as I stood up and got out of bed making my way to the bathroom.
When I got there i did my business, and the just stared at myself in the mirror. Why was I so ugly?
I don't know what Niall saw in me, and he deserved better than me. There are better looking guys out there that he could be with other than myself. I wasn't good enough for him.
This really stressed me out sometimes and I don't know why I'm suddenly thinking like this. I haven't thought about myself like this since I was 13 and I didn't like this feeling.
I moved my hands to the top of my head as I tangled them pulling on my hair. Fuck I needed to stop this. I needed to be good to myself for Niall. Tears threatened to spill from my eyes and I almost couldn't contain them from falling out. But I did, and I held them in as I looked myself in the mirror.
"Smarten up Harry, what would Niall do if he saw you in here like this pulling on your hair?" I starred myself down in the mirror. Then suddenly my phone buzzed on the counter, as I glanced at it sitting there.
Niall
iMessage
I slid my phone open to read the text message.
Niall: come down stairs when your done, Rose is here:)
I quickly washed my hands and left the bathroom, I need to go home. I can't handle being here feeling like this. All I want to do is sleep. Mm sleep.
I made my way downstairs, as I found everyone sitting in the den. I found Niall, immediately and sat down beside him. Until I noticed the girl sitting on the other side of him, who is extremely pretty with blonde locks. She had green eyes that mocked mine, she was beautiful.
"Harry! What took so long?" Niall asks as he throughs his arm around me but not fully around me, just on the top of the couch resting so it didn't seem too noticeable.
"Was talking to my mum," Niall nods.
"Well Harry, this is Rose." I turn towards the blonde girl as she sits up and offers me her hand. "Rose this is Harry." Niall sounded so cute introducing us to each other, as I took her hand and shook it kindly.
"Nice to meet you," I murmured and she just nodded as she sat back into the couch, sitting very closely to my boyfriend may I add. I already didn't like her, I know I didn't like her one because she looks at Niall like he's a piece of meet, and two she has her hand on his knee. Which throughs me off, and all I wanted to do was bark at her and tell her fuck off and don't touch my man. And to also tell her that he roots for the other team. My team, you know because he's gay.
But I couldn't because Niall would probably break up with me for being a douche and over protective boyfriend and also his mother and her friend were sitting across from us. Which wasn't my place to out Niall to his mom and her friend.
So I decided to stay, because I needed to get to know this Rose girl better and how long she'll be here. She must not be trusted.
Harry is a jealous little fellow isn't he?
How do you guys like Rose?

Top Niall soon! I swear.

And what do you think is happening with Harry? Like him wanting to hurt himself.

I'm sorry but if you don't like the self harm/ suicide thing that I've started going on then you should not continue reading this story.

Yes Harry will once try to kill himself again, and yes he'll start to self harm again.

This book is gonna be long. Like I want to write until graduation, which is still like 6 months away in this story line there at right now. I am gonna skip a couple months at the beginning of the next semester. So yeah here is some detail for the plot.
Peace✌️