Not Nearly Metta

Marvin

       Lela is better without him any way. We connected on another level that I know she too felt. It wasn’t just sexual it was more. I couldn’t express it in words but there was a connection. I’ve had feelings for her for a long time but I didn’t know if she felt the same way. I decided I was going to tell her in Miami but this Tony guy got in the way. I would have dealt with him at the bomb fire on the beach but it wouldn’t have look to good for me since he was always in eye shot to Lela.  

      “What was I thinking saying what I said to Tony? Lela was right I did disrespect her by disclosing our sexual activities” I said out loud to myself. The mere thought of having sex with her gave me an instant hard on. Maybe I was moving too fast. She did just get out of a relationship. But damn she felt so good. She took all of me in while she rode me. Damn she was so tight and wet, I couldn’t see why Tony would step out on Lela. She was the whole package hell. But from the explanation Lela gave me about the girl she was not in school to get an education. She was going to school to trap herself a money bag that would leave her paid for the rest of her life. Oh well his lost is my soon to be gain once I smooth things over with Lela. All I can think about is that big ass bouncing all around making me harder. She never dried out hell she stayed wet and when she came it was warm. It only turned me on more as I went harder and came. Shit I could cum right now just thinking about it. To come to think of it, it has now been a week since I last talked, seen and felt Lela I wonder if she thinks about it as much as I do. I know she’s mad at me and she has ever right to be but I know without a doubt that she enjoyed it.

         This was funny I was just thinking of her while I was ‘handling” things and she called. “Hey Le-Le how are you doing” I said as I answered the phone. “Fine and you” she said. I know that’s right I thought to myself. “Ahhhhhh damn” I said. “Hello” she said. Damn I just busted a good ass nut I didn’t mean to say what I did it just came out. Hearing her voice made me think of when she was screaming out in pleasure during our love making for me to not stop and to go harder, faster, or deeper. I didn’t expect to cum just by the sound of her voice, I thought I stopped “handling” myself once I answered the call. “Yea I’m here” I said after clearing my throat. “Are you okay” she asked. “Yea what’s good with you though” I said still holding my dick in my hand and trying to change the subject from what happen. “Nothing much I told you I would call you back and I finally got the time to so I’m calling” she said. “Lela I apologize for”. “Marvin I know, you don’t have to say it. I already forgave you I just needed some time to think about everything that has happen” she said interrupting me. “So what do you think” I asked. She didn’t say anything. “Lela are you still there” I said looking at the phone and putting my ear back on it to lesson for a response. “Yea I’m still here” she said in a low voice. “How do you feel Lela” I said. “Ummmmm I don’t know” she said. “You don’t know how you feel about Antonio” I said not caring how she felt about him. I really wanted to know how she felt about me but there was no harm trying to show sympathy which would hopefully gain me some points. “I want to hate him so much but I don’t. I hate the fact that I love him. I want to pound his stupid little face in. I just, I just don’t know what to feel. What was wrong with me? What did I do to deserve this?” she said. I could tell she was crying again. “Lela don’t cry please. I hate to hear you cry” I said feeling bad that all I could think about was being with her and not thinking about the hell she was going through. “I can’t help it. I feel so fucking stupid” she said now sounding angry. “You’re not stupid Lela” I said trying reassure her that’s she’s not “this could have happened to any one”. “Why do bad things always happen to good people? All I ever done was help people and this is the payback. If his sorry ass didn’t want to be with me anymore he could have saved me the heart ache and just broke up with me like a real man” she said. I don’t even think she was crying any more she sounded piss off. Truth be told I didn’t know what to say. She was right he should have just ended it before she had to find out like this.

      “Marvin” she shouted into the phone. “Yea Lela I’m still hear. I don’t know why bad things always happen to good people but one day he’s going to get his” I said. “Well why can’t that day be today” she asked. “I don’t know but he will” I said. I was at a loss of words. I didn’t know what to say. “Okay” she said in a calm voice. “Okay?” I was surprised that answer calmed her down. “Yea okay” she replied. “And plus you have me to help you get through this” I said. “Thanks Marv” she said with a hint of joy in her voice. I wanted to ask her how she felt about what happen between us but I knew this was not the time and pushing it would only damage my chances. So I decided to change the conversation all together in a new direction. “So how are you doing with choosing to be a lesbian” I said. Admittedly I heard her laugh. Mission accomplished I thought as I heard her laugh in the phone.