Paper Hearts (#JustWriteIt)

Chapter 12

Dear Laura,

I couldn't stay away. I'm sorry. I am so sorry. I knew it, argh!

I'm just so pissed off. I'm sorry. I knew that I should have stayed away. I don't know why I didn't listen to myself. Even more, Laura, your mom absolutely knew that I could only protect you by staying away. Why didn't I listen to her?

Stupid.

Stupid.

Stupid.

Laura, on Monday, after you were out for a whole week, I couldn't take it anymore! I had officially lost my mind. I lost it to you. You haunted my dreams. You soothed my nightmares. You were on my mind when I was calm and angry. You were there when I was looking for you, and when you slipped my mind, you hadn't truly completely did so.

I had to see you, Laura. I don't know why I felt that way, or what caused me to jump to the decision, but I concluded that I needed to bring you back to school. I hadn't realized my motives until I was standing in front of your door with my fist poised to knock. I paused, my fist against the door, but I couldn't bring myself to knock. It was too selfish.

But, I had been selfless for too long. Laura, I kept myself away from you for years. This isn't even selfish, though! I was just trying to see if you were alright. After all, everything is for you. I am still protecting you. Although, even if I wanted to be selfish, I think that I deserve it. Laura, I loved you from afar for so long. I pushed myself into the background for you. So, this... I took this for myself. Unfortunately, it didn't even work.

When I had convinced myself to knock, I was nervous. Laura, I rapped on the door lightly, quietly tapping on the wood. I prepped myself to see you. I was nervous. I shook myself out, relaxed my arm and settling my nerves. Laura, your mother answered the door.

When she saw me, she jumped a foot back and grabbed her heart. I must have startled her. Laura, she had the same line of thinking as me.

"What are you doing here," she whispered, grabbing my arm and dragging me away from the door. I was not put off. Laura, I asked your mother where you were.

"It's none of your business. Laura does not exist to you," she told me. "I thought that I dealt with you already." Laura, I told her that I just wanted to make sure that you were alright. Your mom told me that you were fine, but it was best that I "stick to my own" and not meddle with you, Laura, for I am not good enough. I agreed, but I told her that it is hard. I told your mom that I love you, but she tore up my heart so that it can never reach you.

"Get out of here," she said, shooing me away. "I never want you to see you near my daughter again, and never let her know what you told me today. Now, go!" Laura, then she receded back into the house and slammed the door.

Laura, I wanted to run upstairs, right past your mother, and tell you that I loved you and that I am here for you if you need me. I wanted to hold you again and make sure you are okay. I wanted to see you so that I can breath once more. Instead, I gathered some wildflowers and placed them in your window. I closed my eyes and tried to mentally send you my love to protect you and guard you, wherever you are and however well you are.

I love you,

- Hayden

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