A Devious Player And His Bitchy Roommate {1}

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She tugged on my shirt which made me grow even more hungry for her. I couldn't stop. Shit, I know I fucked up big time.

I knew I was gonna fall for her. Her beauty. Her hidden secrects. Her ignorant attitude. I fell for it all.

From the way she spoke. The way her eyes smile while she laughs. The way she can curse you out in a blink of an eye. Fuck I actually feel myself falling for her.

My hands travelled down her back towards her ass. She landed her arms on my shoulders causing me to pick her up. Her legs swung around my hips while my lips was still attached to her neck.

Shit and I didn't dare to move them. Cause if I did I know I would fall deeper.

Possibly even harder.

She tugged on my hair causing me to look at her. She was inches away from my lips. This is war; me trying to keep my lips away from her is killing me and she sees it.

"You shouldn't fall for me" she said while I let her stand on her own. "I can see that your falling in love with me, but your fighting it which is good of course". There was pause. Why wouldn't I love someone like Sabella. Then she said "Liam sorry to tell you but I don't care about you or the way you feel towards me. I don't want your love nor you petty. I don't want your heart nor your flaws or your promises and your trust".

"I don't want love Liam. I want goodbyes and regrets. I want betrayal and depressing, sad memories". She paused. Tears floods her eyes and her hands balls into a fist. "I don't want happiness. I want destruction". She was growing angry and I tryed to calm her down but I didn't know what to say or do.

I opened my mouth to try to say something but nothing came out.

Fine if its destruction she wants, so be it. I walked towards my room slamming the door shut behind me.

"Fuck it". I walked towards my dresser opening it. Grabbing a medicine bottle full with ecstasy and popping one in my mouth. I reached deeper in to my dresser pulling out a bag full with weed. I rolled one up and started to smoke it.

Might as well get high right. Shit. The only thing I'm good at is destroying myself. I don't know why I think I could fall in love nevertheless feel it. Im angry, hopless and just fucking tired.

"Don't let little things break your happiness" they say. What a bunch of bullshit. Im getting worse and I feel it.

If this is what my lifes gonna fucking be for the rest of my fucking life, than I don't fucking want it anymore. I started to cry. My eyes use to hold life in them. I wonder where it went. I wish it would come back.

Please let it come back.

My room was drowning in silence as I cry. Ecstasy brings out the worst in me but weed trys to calm me. But its like everyday I try to keep my mind quiet and just play along like the rest. That shit doesn't work.

I grabbed my phone and text red head not to come anymore. I didn't wanna see her.

I think about killing myself everyday. That's before I meet Sabella. She fucking changed the game for me.

I smiled. I really do love her. Sabellas like a piano. With its beautiful notes and what not. But in reality, she's poisonous like a drug. Her parents should've named her something different.

Like ecstasy. Beautiful yet deadly.

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