A Devious Player And His Bitchy Roommate {1}

The Only Option 22

We came to a complete stop as we both hear the phone keep buzzing.

I looked at her as she looked at me. I didn't know what to do anymore. My mind, my soul, who I was as a person was lost.

I sat up tearing my gaze from her. At this point I came to a conclusion that I fucked up my life way more by kissing and falling for Sabella.

She got off my bed and went out my room with her phone in her hand getting ready to answer it.

Memories from my past turns into a movie in my head as I sit in my room in silence.

First Jia gets rapped, my parents gets brutally murdered, Tyson is dead, now I so happened to fall in love with the devil.

I started to panic a little as the thoughts in my head swarmed me.

I could've been there for Jia but I was to busy hanging out with friends. If I was there that night. If I fucking answered her call instead of sending it straight to voicemail I could've saved her.

Than my damn parents gets kidnapped and tortured like they were in hell than stabbed so many damn times I wish I didn't rememberer the number.

Tears began to roll down my face.

I miss my mom so fucking much. My dad he was so in love with my mom I seen it. What am I supposed to do now that they are gone?

"I am so tired. I'm so damn tired of this" I said to myself slowly as pain wrote my words that I spoke.

I grabbed my phone trying to distract me from bringing my past up but of course it doesn't work.

I stood up from my bed to go into my dresser to grab a pre-rolled blunt. I lifted the paradise towards my lips and lit it to help me distracted myself from blowing up.

I felt myself getting deeper and deeper into depression. "Should I kill myself now or later?" I said as I look at myself in my mirror. I feel so fucking hopeless it scares me. I want to so badly to call someone but who?

Who would fucking listen to a guy that curses people out and fucks for fun.

Laying back down onto my bed I felt like I was sinking.

"You're so fucking stupid you worthless piece of shit" I told myself as I pull again from my blunt.

As the minutes goes by I have went through about 10 fat blunts already and I still feel hopeless.

My already existing panic behavior grew more and I don't know what to do.

I stood up racking my finger through my hair worryingly. "What if I never become happy again? What if Jia hates me even more that I never picked up the phone to help her? Fuck my parents must also hate me. Why did they have to raise a piece of shit like me?"

My breathing became more heavy and it felt like my mind was becoming more crazy.

"Are you even fucking out there God. I'm swimming in a pool of demons that's torturing me and it seems like you don't fucking care!" I said to myself with anger in my heart.

"Ok Liam calm down dude" I said racking my fingers through my hair.

I rushed and picked up my phone to contact somebody anybody.

Scrolling through my contact list I finally picked somebody to talk to.

I hope to God they answer if not I do know what's gonna happened next and it scares the fuck out of me but I know it's my only fucking choice.

"Hello?"

My heavy breathing stopped and more tears came from my eyes.

"I'm so glade you picked up" I said with just a little bit of happiness.

"Cause you just fucking saved my life" I chuckled depressingly.