fanboy ❀ joshler

eight

"Hello, everyone! After I sang that little tune, I'd like to thank each and every one of you for 15k! It's crazy that I've only been here for a year, and yet we've already made it this far!" Although we've been going on dates, and just hanging out since the meet up, about two months or so, I still watch Tyler's weekly videos. Why wouldn't I? Just because I now know him in real life, doesn't mean I enjoy his videos any less.

I open up Skype, and click on Tyler's contact. It rings for a few seconds, then Tyler's smiling face appears on my screen.

"Hey!" I exclaim, instantly getting butterflies fluttering in my stomach. "I just watched your new video!"

Tyler breaks out into a contagious smile, and I swear I can see a blush appear on his cheeks. "Really? What did you think of it?"

"I just remembered how cute my boyfriend is," I say, but then realized what just came out of my mouth, and my eyes widen. I just called Tyler my boyfriend.

He's silent for a moment, then softly speaks, "Did you just call me your boyfriend?" Oh God, he's going to think I'm a creep! We're not even dating, and I called him my boyfriend!

"Ty, I'm sorry...It slipped, I didn't mean it." I look down, and began to pick at my nails. It's a nervous habit, and when I glance up, I see Tyler has his bottom lip between his teeth.

"Oh," He says after what seems to be hours. "It's okay." 

I can't stand the silence, and quickly change the topic, "Hey, are you doing anything this weekend?" 

"Yeah, I'm visiting my sister in New York, what about you?"

"Nothing planned, but have fun in New York! Be sure to Skype me when you're there!" The awkwardness has finally passed, and I can tell since Tyler giggles. Which sounds like heaven through my headphones, by the way.

"Well, I gotta pack. I'm leaving early tomorrow morning." Tyler gives me a slight wave and I grin at him the widest my mouth can go, and I hear his faint laugh as I hang up the call. 

Thinking back, I realize how disappointed Tyler sounded when I said I didn't mean it.

Of course I want to be his boyfriend, but I don't want it to be rushed. I enjoy having the same enormous crush on him as I did when I first stumbled upon his channel, but what if that all goes away when we actually start dating? What if he finds someone else? It's not like we're committed or anything, so it's quite possible. 

Maybe I did mean it.

a/n:

i'm sorry if this chapter is v short but to make up for it there will be a bunch happening neXT chapter !!

also -- i'm writing a new short joshler fic called drunk texts if you wanna give it a read. it will take like 2 seconds to read it no lie.