Your Greatest Mistake

Chapter Four

Niall's POV

I couldn't believe that I was standing here throwing pebbles at her window. I know, I know. So cliche. But I need to talk to her! I saw her peer through the curtain and roll her eyes.

"Riley open the window!" I shouted.

She shook her head and went to walk away. I began to throw more pebbles until she finally opened the window.

"If you break my window, you're paying for a new one." She said.

"I have to talk to you!" I yelled.

"Save it Niall." She shouted.

"Please just let me in so I don't have to shout. Please Riley we have to talk about this sooner or later!" I yelled.

"Fine, I choose later!" She shouted closing her window.

I knew she kept a key under the mat. I made a dash for the front door. Clearly she knew I remembered because she was running too. I got the key out from under the mat and in the door just as she was getting to the door. I got in and shut the door behind me.

"Shit." She said.

"Love, can we talk." I said trying to catch my breath.

"No, just go." She said softly.

I could hear the sadness in her voice. I could hear the she was fighting tears.

"Just let me talk." I said, "Okay I didn't mean to permanently break up with you."

"Like I said, save it." She snapped.

"I just knew how much it was hurting you to be away from me. So I thought we could take a break." I explained.

"But you didn't think it would hurt more to end it? Or how much it hurts to read about our break up in some stupid magazine?" She said.

I looked up at her. She was trying so hard not to cry, but the tears began to spill over. She leaned on the wall and turned away from me. She was crying quietly to herself. I walked over to her and took her in my arms. She leaned her head on my chest and wrapped her arms around my torso. She was sobbing now.

"It hurt enough to not be with you, and then out of no where you break up with me. You broke me. And then you come back here and expect everything to be fine cause you say so? You destroyed me. And I can't forgive you for that." She cried.

"Please Riley. I love you." I said.

"I love you too Niall. But I don't trust you anymore." She said.

She let go of me and I put my back to the wall. I wasn't someone who cried easily, but somehow I felt the tears streaming down my face.

"Don't say that, please. You have to trust me. You.... I just." I trailed off.

I slid down the wall and brought my knees close to my body. I put my face in my hands and completely broke down right in front of her. I wanted to stop crying, but I couldn't. She was still crying too.

"It kills me to see you this way. Hurt because of me. I never meant to hurt you love. I'm so sorry." I cried.

"I can't forgive you." She said.

"This can't be the end of us! It can't. We are end game. No, this can't." I shouted.

"It might be for the best." She whispered.

"No. No. No. No. Please no." I sobbed.

Neither of us spoke for about fifteen minutes. We sat next to each other crying and holding hands. I didn't want to let go. I couldn't let go.

"I'm going to fix this. Please just let me fix this." I said to her.

"I don't know. I just don't know." She said.

I didn't say anything else. I just sat there holding her hand for hours, letting her think. I would sit here all night if she let me.