Living with my bully (Mark Tuan)||GOT7||

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Warning: This contains self harm

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My hands shakily took the little piece of sharp silver, one of my bestfriends.
My razor, my little sharp friend who took away the emotional pain for awhile.

I lifted up my sleeve, my arm was a clean canvas. I pushed my sharp friend onto my wrist, striking harshly against my skin, making a clear long cut, blood streaming from it and causing a small groan to escape my lips.
After awhile the cuts along my arm had risen in numbers and I had been seeping blood for awhile.
Shakily I took a towel and put pressure on my arm, also soaking up the Crimson blood before it could fall on the floor.
I felt disappointed in myself straight after, but the emotional pain subsided and I felt alittle more at ease.

Quickly swinging on a jumper I rushed to the bathroom, washing my arm to make sure I didn't get an infection. Sighing I looked in the mirror and saw my tear stained face, I looked the worse. My voice felt sore and croaked and my arm stung like crazy, but I liked it also.

After cleaning myself up I went into my bedroom, shutting my door and then cleaning up the tissues and towels, putting the stained towel into a box under my bed so nobody would question anything.

This was my secret, nobody else's.

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Making my way to school, I felt myself get anxious as I neared closer, today I was walking. I needed the fresh air and all honesty taking the bus today didn't seem like a good thing to do. Plus I wanted to leave early and avoid Mark, I was still so upset with him, because I had raised my hopes that we were becoming friends and the fact it was all false made me sadden.

As I walked into school I was extra paranoid about my blazer and kept pulling it down, I didn't want people to know and i didn't want my blazer to rise up at all.
But that's obvious.

Jungkook raced over a smile on his lips "hmm we should go somewhere today after school"he beamed

I smiled weakly "yeah, sure thing"

He frowned "you don't look with it, what's wrong?" He questioned in a concerned tone

I felt so bad that I had broken our promise .... I couldn't even look at Jungkook properly. It hurt because I had disappointed my best friend.

-Flashback -

His hands grabbed my arm gingerly, his eyes were streaming with tears as he raised my sleeve, and as soon as he saw what I had done he broke down into tears. I felt so much pain within my chest as I saw him like he was.

"Kookie don't cry P-please it is my own doing"

He stared at me with watery eyes, he took my hand in his and sniffled alittle.
"You won't do this again okay? I won't be able to handle you doing this to yourself, it hurts so much to see you like this... Just try and ignore the bullying Harley okay, things will get easier. And don't do this because you're grieving over your nan, don't do it because your nan wouldn't want you doing this to yourself"

I nodded weakly "I won't do it okay"

He smiled and pulled me into a hug "I I won't do it Jungkook"

- End of Flashback ~

"Earth to Harley?"

I choked slightly as I felt tears brimming in my eyes "s-sorry I need to go" I stuttered as I ran away from him

I ran into the school building, the tears were unstoppable, I was so stupid so god damn stupid and selfish, why did I do it again when I had promised Jungkook, why do it when I could bite though it and deal with my issues instead of being a coward and cutting myself. I promise Jungkook because I saw how hurt and upset he was and I can't ever see him like that again.

I can't even look him in the eyes at the moment, I rushed to the janitors closet, quickly going inside and sitting at the very back, my back pressed against the wall as my hands shakily held my head as I sobbed. I sobbed and I sobbed. I didn't care if I got in trouble for skipping lessons because right now I am a mess.
Luckily even if anybody opened the closet they wouldn't be able to see me, it's pitch black and the bulb has been blown for awhile now.

Jungkook

Something wasn't right, I couldn't feel it. As soon as I saw Harley today she didn't look right, she looked dead and emotionless, her eyes were puffy indicating she had been crying, her hands were shaking slightly too.
Not only that but she had day dreamed. Then after that she ran off and I saw a few tears escape her eyes, I needed to find out what was wrong.

I think Mark has done something, I swear if he said anything to her he wouldn't be able to say another word. I really hope I'm not correct with my superstitions.

Charging into the school I looked around for Mark, my fists were balled into fists and I was beyond pissed. Even if I may be wrong I just needed to find out what was wrong.

After looking for awhile I finally saw Mark, he was with his friends Jackson and Junior. I instantly went over to him, grabbing him by the collar and pressing his body on a locker.

He gasped "WHAT THE HELL" he snapped

I hit him on the lockers causing a loud bang and a big commotion. "What did you do" I bit

Mark frowned "what?"

"WHAT DID YOU DO TO HARLEY?"

Mark deadpanned "nothing, nothing at all now get the fuck away from me before I cause an injury"

I just pushed him back on the locker "don't you dare threaten me, I can see that you did something. It's all over your face. Harley ran away crying and isn't her self, now why is that?"

Mark just simply grabbed me by the collar and threw me to the floor his eyes were full with anger "don't you dare touch me or involve me in her stupid tantrums"