One, two, three, four, Five! Five days na hindi kami nagkita. Miss na miss ko na siya, busy kasi siya sa mga appointments niya. Although hindi naman niya nakakalimutan ang tumawag every 2 hours. I want to go to his shoots pero di siya pumapayag dahil patayan daw ang training namin. E miss ko na siya eh, tsss.
Amy: besh, afternoon training is canceled, coach will be going somewhere daw. Instead of facing me with that crazy face of yours, go and be with ravena! You're giving me a bad day din with that long face!
Aww, kanina pa pala si amy dito, I almost forgot. Lutang talaga ako this past few days, yun ang sabi ng teammates ko. Sinasali na nga lang nila ako sa kalokohan nila para di daw ako parating tulala.
Bea: ate's sama kayo, shopping kami.hahahah! Pandagdag ng laman sa cabinet!
Ly: kalokohan niya talaga eh no? E di nanga magkasyakasya mga gamit niyo eh! Hahah, sige kayo nalang!
Bea: KJ talga ate lyy!
Amy: hephephep! Enough, bae let ly, she will give us a long face if she wont see her boyfriend! I will go with you guys to guard you.
Bea: ate, we're not kids anymore(pouts)
Nako! Buti nalang sasama si amy baka ano na namang kababalaghan gawin nila eh..
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Papunta nako sa shoot ni kief, without him knowing ofcourse! Di nanaman ako papayagan nun konh sasabihan ko siya, eh baka mabaliw nako kakaisip sa kanya eh. I'm driving towards the studio where he is when...
*kriiing*kriiing*
I answer it, it's kief! :) you know he's still consistent on checking me out but it's not enough!
Me: hello? Hon!
K: hon? Aww. I miss you! Kumusta ang prinsesa ko?
M: Im okay now that you call! Miss you too!
K: ano ginagawa mo? Do you have training at 3?
M: wala po, and mamaya pa ang class ko kaya relax ako now, how bout you?
K: so busy, but now Im okay just hearing your voice! Naks hahah
M: pahinga ka naman kahit 1 day hon, you're working yourself much! Hindi na kita nakikita eh(using my paawa voice)
K: sorry hon ha if Im not there to fulfill my duties, ill make it up to you I promise!
Malapit nako sa shooting place niya so nagpaalam nako, still no guts on telling him Im coming:)
M: gonna call you later hon, I'll meet someone, haha, wag ka magselos. You know naman kung sino siya, babye! Love you
I ended the call ang parked my car. Im assissted by his manager to where he is. Pero,
Sana di nalang ako nagpunta dito kung makikita ko naman siya na katabi ang isang girl. They're too close, i just run to hide my tears from his manager.
So this is what he's been doing? No, alyssa dont think about that!
But I cant help it, why kief? Don't you love me na? Babalik kana naman sa kanya?
Yes it's mika who Im pretaining.
I just close the door of my car as i enter with eyes full of tears, pain and regrets.
Sana di nalang ako nagpunta dito, sana hindi ako nasasaktan ng ganito.
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Its been one hell of a day, Im tired crying when I got some time to think of what i had seen yesterday. Plus bakbakang training kami kasi holyweek is coming ang coah decided to give us 3 days break.
Masakit nanga katawan ko, masakit pa puso ko. He's been calling me pero i just put my sim in the trashbin and get another one.
Wala naman ata siyang paki kung di niya ko matawagan eh, I didnt felt his presence din naman the whole day. I guess ito na kinatatakutan ko,
Just thinking of that, napahikbi nanaman ako. Kailan ba mawawalan ng tubig ang tear glands ko?
Im here at the dorm, and for sure nasense na nila na im broken, pero di muna sila nagtanong, they really know me.
*toktoktok*
Ly: pasok.
Its the team, the whole team it is.
Bea being the very touchy one to me just hug me so tight and that feeling when someone's comforting you but you cry even more knowing someones there for you.
Bea: shhh, ate ly, you know naiiyak din kami when we see you cry. (Teary eyed)
I just face them smiling,
Aly: i guess its the prize of loving a person. Hindi niya ata ako minahal o sadyang hindi niya nako mahal dahil alam niya na kung sino ako as a girlfriend. I think im the worst one? Am I? Am I not worthy to hold or to be with for a long time? ( i just hid my face in my palm and cry even more. Smiling isnt just fit for this situation.)
Now the gastons are hugging me.
Pauline: aww, capt you know what? If I will choose an ate, a captain and an adviser I will choose you over and over. No ofense ate rese! And I wish that you could be with me till the end of my career, If you think you are not worthy to be with for a long time, crash that. I will be willing to be with you forever, we will be till the end.
Aww, she's really sweet kid.
Therese: yes ate, we are sisters right, jackpot to have a phenom sister! Hahah
And that made me and all of them laugh shedding OUR tears, they're really teary eyed when pau and rese are hugging me. Really lucky to have them all. And they envelope me to a Group hug! I just smile to them, Lord, thankyou for giving them to me!
But I guess its the start of the storm. I dont know what to do now. Ifs, ifs! Thats what im trying to settle.
Paging Alyssa Valdez, go here at the lobby, Kiefer Ravena is looking for you
Tell me? Paano ko siya haharapin?!
Maddie: ate ly, I think you need to talk din naman. But its still your choice ate.
Aly: mads, can I ask you a favor? Please tell him Im not ready to face him, if he ask why please dont tell the truth. He doesn't know, if he ask me if Im okay, tell him Im always okay.
I cant, not now. Maybe next time around, when I found the missing piece of my heart.
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An: hey! its 2 parts oneshot story. Thankyou for reading my imaginations. Hahaha😘 our ship is happily sailing now! 👫Cheers🙌 stay safe #TeamA💙
