Fade To Black (#wattys2016)

Chapter Three

"So Cara, you looking forward to school tomorrow? We is big 12th graders now." My friend Madison and Alice said jokingly to me, nudging my shoulder. As we were sitting in a park enjoying the last few hours of our summer vacation.
It was then and right there. Me staring at the empty field in front of me that my life flashes before my eyes. It felt like I was reliving my life; reliving my sadness all over again.
I looked over to my friends both of them having guilty expressions written across there face. They both know the answer I was going to say.
"No, I don't wanna go back to school. High School is a war zone of pretend people with pretend intensions. It's like we're still young, playing dress up games with our feelings; who we are; who we think we need to be."
I continue to say my rant looking directly into Alice and Madison's eyes.
" I lost myself in a place that wouldn't matter once I left. I don't know why it had to be me, out of all the people it was me that had to be hurt not just emotionally but physically too. And I don't know how to go back to that once happy person I was before all this shit happened. All I can't do right now is watch everything come crumbling down."
By the end of me talking I was engulfed in a huge hug by Madison and Alice.
"Thanks guys," I say hugging them back in a bone crushing hug.
"On a much lighter note, who wants to go out and watch a movie. By then it would be time to go home seeing its already 5:53. So who wants to see Unfriended. I heard it was scary." Madison said.
"Yeah." I respond getting up running to the car leaving my friends behind me.
Once I got to the car I jumped in. 'Wait didnt we lock the doors.' I thought to myself. I heard a cough coming from next to me. I looked over and saw a middle aged man sitting beside me.
At first I thought 'what is this man doing in Alices car,' but then I looked around me and noticed Madison and Alice were walking towards the car I am in laughing.
They walked over to the side i was in and said.
"Cara not to burst your bubble or anything but this isnt our car. The cars on the other side of the parking lot." Madison said trying not to laugh any harder. I think she knew I was already embaressed enough.
My face turned Red. I looked over to the man seeing that he was laughing now too. I said a quick "sorry," and jumped out the car.
Alice and Madison were waking in front of me, I kept my head down. 'I bet this is exactly how the walk of shame feels like'. I thought to myself.
Once I got to the right car this time I sat in the back while Alice and Madison were in the front.
"So whos ready to see the movie."

After movie

"That was the worst movie I have ever seen. I want a refund." I said walking out of the movie theater.
Madison and Alice noded there heads in agreement.
It was dark outside. It was around 10 since the movie started at 8:45 well really it started at 9 Because of all the comercials.
"Cara you wanna be dropped of first since your house is the closest?"Alice said when we started to drive on the main Road.
"Yea man." I say.
" You sound like a stoner, Cara." Alice said laughing.
"Who said I wasnt."
By the end of that conversations we just sang along with the ràdio.
After jamming to some Journey (It is 1986 just a reminder.)
We where already at my house.
Alice stopped infront of my house.
"Bye baby, see you tomarrow want me to pick you up?" Alice said jokingly.
"Bye babe, and yeah you can pick me up. Be hear at like 6 so you can help me pick out an outfit. Bye Madison. Love yall."
"Love you too cara." Madison and Alice said.
I walked up to the front door and opened it. When I walked in I didnt see that bitch or my dad even though there cars were in the drive way.
As I walked up the stairs I kept hearing rocking sounds and voices. As I got closer to my ròom the sound got Louder and Louder. When I walked into my room
Then I heard something that made me throw up in my mouth.
I heard moaning. That bitch and my dad were Having sex.
No that is it. I will not go to sleep knowing that my dad is Having sex in the next room.
I started to bang on the wall yelling,
"I Know you two are Having fun but I have to go to school tomarrow. And I would appreciate it dad if you would stop fucking that bitch, please."
And with that they stopped and I locked my door, Because I do not feel like seeing my dad.
I guess they went to sleep Because the house went dead silent. Now I was left alone with my thoughts.
I'm thinking about how I have to go back to a place where I always get hurt. I think about my dad and how I love him but I can't stand who he is with. I think about how I want my dad back, the real one not the one who is controlled by a bitch. I think about my friends and how if it wasn't for them I probably wouldn't be here right now.
And finally I think about my mother. I think about how I want her back, how I miss her little smart ass comments. I miss the ways we would fight during the days but forget all about that and say how we love each other.
I quickly change my thoughts. Because if I countinue to think about my mother I would have broken down right then and there.
To calm myself down I take deep breaths.
I love that feeling, you know the one you get when you take a deep breathe and suddenly everything feels like its going to be okay.
When you're hopeless as can be, and life is going nowhere. There's those moments we have every now and then where we just stop, and we get this feeling, that can't be described but you just feel like, everything is going to be okay. Like the world stopped spinning for a second, and everything is clear. I need more of these moments.
My eye lids began to drop, and the last thing I think about is how school is going to be like tomarrow.

A/N
Sorry this took so long but here it is. Hope you enjoyed.
Have a good day my rockers.