Fade To Black (#wattys2016)

Chapter six

"Cara, we are at your house.Sorry we can't stay the night, wish we could. We will pick you up tomorrow." Madison said as we pulled into my drive way. As we were driving to my house they asked there parents if they could stay but no, they can't because it's a school night. Stupid fucking school. Nobody likes you. Fuck off.(Woah I just had a moment there.)
"Bye guys. Love you." I said to Madison and Alice licking them on their cheeks. Madison and Alice made a disgusted noise and their face contorted into disgust.
As I jump out the car and into my house. I looked over my shoulder running to my front door yelling, "No homo bro." (I know they didn't say that but whatever.)
When I got into my house, I wish I hadn't. When I walked into my house my dad and his girlfriend -the bitch- were sitting on the couch looking at me.
"Cara. We need to talk to you. Please sit down." My father had said, while I was taking a seat farthest from them.
"Cara....." The bitch began. "Me and your father have been doing a lot of thinking and we want to tell you that we are getting married."
As she finished saying that all the blood in my face went away.
I began to slowly turn my head down to the bitches hand.
I noticed a diamond ring wrapped around the bitches finger.
I can't believe this.
"Why didn't you tell me dad? You know I fucking hate her. You know I hate her yet you go behind my back and fucking marry her. Father of the fucking year. Why? Why dad?" I said beginning to feel anger tears well in my eyes.
"Cara we don't use that type of language in this house. Now Cara, you know I love Courtney, why can't you except that. You used to say when we lost your mother that whoever I was happy with you wouldn't mind me dating them. What's so bad about her?"
My body went numb as my father brought up my mother.
A new wave of pain went through me.
As soon as the cruel, cold words came out my dads mouth, I felt like my heart was about to shatter in a million pieces, like a glass vase being dropped to the floor, like I was a brick wall, about to crumble, like I was about to collapse in on my self, like I was about to fall.
"The problem with her," My voice cracked as I was yelling to my dad. "The problem with her is, she's not mom. I want my mom back. I don't want you dating other girls. That bitch has caused me pain. I see you being all happy while I'm over here crying nightly because I miss my fucking mother. See you later I'm leaving." I say to my father as I walked out the door. I don't know where I'm going. I just let my feet take me away from here.
I hadn't noticed the color of the clouds up in the sky that they had gotten darker throughout the day. It was raining, but not the type of rain where it's cold and hard and you have to run inside and hope the storm blows over soon as you sit in a dark house.
It's the rain where you can walk outside with no jacket. The type where the wind is blowing, lightly but efficiently, and all you want is  the cold rain to touch your burning face.
As I continued to walk as far as I could I looked up from my feet to the place I had stopped at.
I was at the graveyard. The grave yard where my mother is buried.
This has to be a sign.
I walk through the tombs where the bodies lay beneath my feet, I see my mothers tomb stone. Where she is hopefully resting peacefully.
I looked down to my mothers grave, and sat down on the cold damp floor.
Tears begin to flood my vision.
"February 20, 1954 to September 12, 1984.
Those years you were alive mom, were the best years the world has ever had. You made the world a little brighter with your purely white teeth. You made the world happier with your personality. You made the world more beautiful. Mom, you changed the world."
As I say these words I feel something. Like a presence of something. I look over and there's nothing. I look all around me and theres nothing there.
I don't believe in the paranormal or anything, but I'm most diffidently sure that my mother is here with me.
I smile knowing the my mother is listening to me.
"Mom, Courtney and dad are getting married. I don't wan them to. I told dad I didn't want them to but he didn't care. Mom I just miss you and I need you back here with me..," I say my voice cracking.
"Mom, I miss you. I don't want you to forget me. I'm scared that you will. Your probably doing fun stuff up there.
You're happy and I'm not. But you know I'm glad your happy. You deserve it.
Back to the point. I'm just scared you'll forget me. I'm scared you are. You were the morning the reminded me that I'm alive and the evenings that remind me I made it through the day. You're what stops me from standing up to a noose. But your gone. And I don't know how much longer I can do this. I'm only here because I don't wan to hurt other people. I can't do that to dad or Madison and Alice. They would be crushed. But mom I need you. I need you so fucking bad."
I was getting up of the ground trying to make my way back to my house before It gets dark and before I break down.
I heard A little whisper in my ear.
"Don't worry Cara, I'm happy and I will never forget you. Don't give up, they need you. I'm always watching over you. I'm always here. I love you Cara. And I always will."
I scream, looking all around me seeing what could produce that voice. I look all around me and I saw nothing.
As I began walking out the grave yard, holding back the tears. I think about the voice I had just heard.
It sounded a lot like my mother. No it can't be. I'm just imagining it. It's just my subconscious saying what I want to hear.
Yeah, that's it. I think walking back to my house, getting ready to be prepared for what ever my dad has to offer me when I walk through the front door.

A/N
Sorry I took so long to update. My puppy just passed away and I'm just now feeling the after shock of it. I hope you all have a good day my rockers.