Still The Same

Different

Different...

My eyes don't look the same,

As they were before..

It seems like,

There's another shut door..

I can't seem to find my dreams,

Since the last time I fell asleep..

I don't think the skies are the same,

Since I tried to let go of the memories I keep..

Every time I look in the mirror,

I keep telling myself nothing has changed..

But in reality,

Everything different..

The sun is a little dimmer,

In my eyes..

The stars seem to fade,

Right when I try to cry..

I can't hold the rain in my hands anymore,

And the numbness in my heart seems to be stronger..

My thoughts seem to scream,

And I think the words hang longer..

I know your holding me,

But it seems like it's too tight..

I've won my last battle,

But I still feel like I have to fight..

Every time I look in the mirror,

I try saying nothing has changed..

But in my mind I know,

Everything is different..

Shadows don't go away,

Neither do scars.

I don't want it to matter,

But I've quit wishing on the stars.

Everything is different,

There's nothing to change.

Everything is different,

And the past is out of range.

All the echo's catch up,

So here I am.

Everything is different,

No matter how tall my walls try to stand.

Everything is absolutely,

Truly,

Once and for all,

Different...

                                                                 -Victoria Marie <3