Love or Hate: A Naruto Fanfiction Book 1

Depression

You kick down the tree extremely hard and go through all of the other one's within five meters of you creating a deformed circle.   You fall to your knees crying.  It had been two weeks since Isao died and all you can do at the moment is blame yourself for all of it.  "If I was there sooner, if I could have been there sooner, he wouldn't have died... He wouldn't have died.  He would be by my side."   You say angrily.  You get up and punch a nearby tree.  "GOD!!!! WHY TAKE HIM!!!! WHY COULDN'T YOU HAVE TAKEN ME!!!"  You scream.   You hadn't have come out of training field Ak13 for a long time and you know it.   It has been at least four days since you disappeared from your apartment and pitying eyes of your so called friends, Hotaru is probably really worried about you too.    You teleport to the tree house, you, Hotaru and Isao made together when you were seven, the day before your eighth birthday.   You sit down at the table and grab one of your apples you had brought with you.   You feel someone's chakra behind you suddenly.  "Captain?"   You hear as you take a bite of your apple.  "Go away, I don't want to see anyone."  You say coldly.   "Okay Captain"  they say then the chakra is gone.  You go back to eating your apple.  

A few minutes later you finish your apple. You then feel another chakra again.   "I told you to leave me the hell alone!"  You say angrily as tears start to stream down your face.  "Nori... It's me, Kakashi."  You hear.  "I don't care... Leave me alone"  you say angrily.  "Please listen to me!"   Kakashi says taking a step towards you.  "Why can't you listen!!! And just leave me the fuck alone!!!"   You yell at Kakashi as you turn around.   A look of pity is on Kakashi's face.   "Get away from me!"  You say angrily.  Kakashi turns away from you and disappears.  You stand and walk over to one of the three beds and break down crying .   You curl up in the blankets crying.   

Time skip... Three days later...

You transport all of your stuff then look around as you raise a barrier around the tree house.  You then teleport to your apartment.  You hear crying.   You straighten yourself out a bit and take off your sandals.  You then walk into your bedroom to see Hotaru.  "Why hasn't she come back yet... I miss her so much."  Hotaru says. You are in a black crop top with black capris.   Your hair is tied back and out of your face, but you are bathed and clean.   "Hotaru?"  You say shyly.  Hotaru looks at you and then stands.  You look at him then down at the ground.   "Nori... Is that really you?"  Hotaru asks.  You look up and nod slowly.  "Are you... mad at me?"  You ask and turn away from Hotaru as he walks up to you.   "Of course not, Nori. I could never be mad at you."   Hotaru says as he hugs you.   You hug him back softly.  "Hotaru... Can you call me by my real name... Please?"  You ask him.  "Anything for you Yumi." Hotaru says.   "Thank you Hotaru"  you say hugging him tightly.  "I love you Yumi."  Hotaru says.   "I love you too, Hotaru."  You say.   Suddenly there is a knock at the door.   Hotaru sighs and so do you.   You then smirk as you pull out your mask.   Hotaru lets go of you, but then grabs your hand as the both of you move towards the door.    Your stuff is in the room already in their places because you're that skilled.  You finish adjusting your mask as Hotaru opens the door first.   "Has Nori shown up yet?" You hear Sakura ask.  You then jump out and tackle her.  You are hugging her tightly.   "What the heck!!!"  Sakura yells.   Hotaru pulls you off of Sakura.  "Don't need to smother her."  Hotaru laughs then hugs you.  You escape from Hotaru then help up Sakura.   "Where were you!!!!   Everyone was looking for you!" Sakura yells.   "Yeah and many people found me, so what."  You say calmly.   "But where were you?" Sakura asks.  "Ak13 or more known as training ground forty three."  You answer bluntly.  "But those are forbidden!" Sakura says.   "The reason why I went there.  Think if people aren't allowed to go somewhere, but when they are trying to hide, where would they go?"    You state calmly and cock your head.   

Time skip... Three hours later...

You and Hotaru are walking towards the training grounds calmly.   You are hiding yourself from others as Hotaru is holding you closely.   You nuzzle yourself into him like a child out of embarrassment, as all these people are trying to look at you.   You suddenly hear "I wonder who that is?"  You peak out slightly to see a group of guys.  You hide yourself in Hotaru's side.  Hotaru is slightly laughing.   "Don't laugh at me."  You whine.   "I'm not laughing at you, just the way you are behaving is all."  Hotaru says. "Same thing."  you protest.  Hotaru laughs. "Yumi, you don't have to hide from them, no one really knows you anyways, you are an Anbu after all." Hotaru says.  You nod.  You start to peak your head out and say "okay, but I don't want people to call me... you know what."      "Nah they won't, but I actually liked your eyes they were very unique and beautiful.   Your eyes are still beautiful to me even though they switched to being black".   Hotaru says.  "You really thought that?"  You say.  "Isao thought your eyes were beautiful too, he always said 'that he wished he could find a guy with eyes like hers'. Her being you."   Hotaru says.   Then something clicked.   "Hotaru what about your boyfriend?"  You ask.   "Ex boyfriend, I dumped him because he is an abusive alcoholic."  Hotaru answers.   "Oh" you say and turn away from him slightly.    "Yumi, I can handle you, your fun when you're drunk.  You don't try to break everything and anything in and around you."   Hotaru says and wraps his arm around your waist.    The training fields are coming into view.