agony | solar [completed]

five

jae;

mom's starting to become scary.

I wish I had you here for comfort.

sometimes, loud smashing can be heard from the lounge.

I figured mom had thrown a bottle against the wall while thinking about you.

why couldn't you have told us you were leaving?

oh, that's right. you couldn't.

no one can tell when their leaving.

it's physically impossible.

jae, the tissue boxes are disappearing in our house.

I went to find one to wipe up the spill I caused in the kitchen, but I couldn't find any.

my search lead me to mom's room, where all the tissue boxes were piled up, empty, beside her bed.

you know jae, love hurts.

and love was the only thing we ever had for you.

now it came back and bit us hard.

it hurts more than its meant to.

this family is a wreck.

mom's a wreck.

I'm a wreck.

I'm thinking of bringing myself to you too. I'm ready for you to embrace me.

we would have a better life up there.

I'm sure we would.

from your sister that desperately misses you,

solar.