agony | solar [completed]

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jae;

I'm living with a friend of mine who was kind enough to take me in.

I'm grateful that they took me in, because I didn't know where I would end up without them.

I'm slowly adjusting without the two of you, but it isn't easy to adjust.

the next day when I returned to school, everyone had heard about my losses and said their condolences.

I thanked them all, one by one and said that I needed time by myself.

I lied.

I wanted to spend time with people, but I didn't want them to see me in this state.

I was sure no one did.

so I sat alone in class,

alone in the cafeteria,

alone in the library,

and alone on the bus.

one by one, my friends decided to give up on me.

even the one I was staying with.

I knew that I brought it on myself.

I knew I was to blame,

but what was I to do?

jae, help me please, help me.

even my teachers were finding me a pain.

if only they knew how much you and mom meant to me.

if only they knew.

from your lonely sister,

solar.