agony | solar [completed]

three

four months jae, four months.

school just isn't the same anymore.

no one to protect me from those bullies.

no one to lend me spare lunch money when I forgot to bring some.

no one I could happily look up to everyday.

that's all gone.

we learnt about self harm today.

it was a perfect lesson until a friend asked me if this was what happened to you.

to be honest, I don't know what happened to you.

and it left me in a state of depression for the rest of the day, and the days to come.

the thought of never knowing what happened to you hurts.

it seriously hurts.

I don't know whether you're alive or dead, but it's been so long, I just can't make myself believe you're still out there somewhere.

from your depressed sister,

solar.