Cold Lonely Nights

Pressure

Drew can't help but be extremely on edge at the dinner table. He can't stop thinking about the letters.

Were they really letters? Couldn't they be diary entries? People name their diaries, right?

Laurence's hand resting on Drew's thigh makes him tense up.

Those diary entries were right! How could I put up with this?

Stop it, thinking like this is dangerous! If Laurence thinks I'm not happy about this I'm done for, ruined!

Drew takes a deep breath to calm himself down, deciding to do the same to Laurence. Laurence instantly takes the opportunity to guide his hand higher up.

Drew shudders a little at being in this situation even in front of his parents. The fact that Laurence is doing this makes Drew try to use it to his advantage to piss off his parents. Laurence purrs when Drew strokes over his jeans.

Laurence instantly grabs Drew's hair to press their lips together. Drew hesitates a little but remembers how mad he is at the Bakers and kisses back.

"Jennie!" Mrs Baker gasps.

"I'm not hungry." Drew tells them.

Laurence picks Jennie up by the waist and sits her down on his lap. He keeps kissing her intensely, letting his hands wander over his girlfriend's body. Eventually his hands reach somewhere that hasn't quite healed up from the surgery and Jennie gasps at the pain. Laurence ignores this or doesn't notice and keeps a firm grip on her.

Jennie tries to break the kiss but Laurence doesn't let her. To get out of it, she shoves Laurence off, getting off him and heading to another room.

Drew wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, shutting the bathroom door and locking it before lifting his skirt to see the barely healed surgery scars.

What the hell did they do to me? I don't remember enough to figure it all out.

Drew flinches when he hears a knock on the door.

"Jennie babe are you okay?" Laurence checks.

"I'm just a little sore from the surgery." Drew replies through the door.

"Can I come in?" Laurence checks.

As much as Drew is uneasy at the thought of letting Laurence in, more impatient knocking makes him give in, after covering up his surgery scars.

"Hey baby, what was that back there?" Laurence checks, stroking Jennie's hair out of his face.

"I'm still a little sensitive from the surgery." Jennie murmurs.

"You're always sensitive babe and you also know that there's a great way to boost your immune system. It's also very pleasurable and it's a great way to just unwind." Laurence purrs, brushing Jennie's hair away from her shoulder. "Come on baby. It will take your mind off the pain."

Drew tenses up a little when Laurence presses his lips against his sensitive neck. This is made worse by the fact that he's also started tugging a little at his shirt to make more space while he starts kissing Drew's skin hungrily.

Laurence doesn't stop until he hears the words he's been waiting to hear for the past two years they've been dating, or close enough anyway.

"Okay, I'll do it! Can we at least do it on my bed?" Drew whines.

Laurence stops and strokes Drew's face, looking him in the eye. "It's about damn time."

I guess confronting my parents about drugging me will have to wait for another time. Drew thinks before anxiously following Laurence to his room.

Drew gulps before closing the door behind them.

What have I done? I need to remember the letters and get back to them when I'm done with Laurence. What if I'm not ready? What if I do something wrong? Doesn't it hurt?

Shit, my mother's going to kill me either way.

I don't even care anymore.