Cold Lonely Nights

Innocent Lost

Drew shivers when Laurence starts undressing, feeling extremely uncomfortable.

What the hell was I thinking? I can't do this!

He keeps taking off more of his clothes, beckoning Jennie over.

Drew shakily steps forward once Laurence loses his shirt. Laurence instantly takes the opportunity to unbutton Jennie's blouse. He stops when he notices the defensive posture Jennie is getting.

"You can't be serious baby, I thought you were over this." Laurence complains.

"I think, could we just cuddle in bed tonight?" Drew tries.

"Shirtless?" Laurence suggests. "You owe me that at least."

Jennie is extremely reluctant but gives in, shrugging off the blouse and slipping into the bed with Laurence.

Laurence strokes Jennie's hair away from her neck, kissing the sensitive skin sensually. "Is it just that time of the month?" He bluntly checks.

Jennie quickly thinks up the answer that won't arose or upset him. "Yeah, sorry, it's a real bummer."

"Just tell me when it's over." He decides, resting a confident hand on Jennie's breast.

She frowns a little in discomfort but still doesn't say anything in the fear that it will make Laurence even more irritable.

The whole night, Jennie can't stop thinking about those letters she saw.

There was an address that they were going to be sent to. Maybe I could try to send something so that I can get some kind of reply.

This makes Drew wait for Laurence to fall asleep before slipping out of bed, collecting all of the letters and reading all of them, laying them out so that they are in chronological order. The first letter, even through the child writing wasn't very good at it yet, there was certainly a lot that was being said.

Drew tries to wonder what made his younger self so emotional, since as the letters go on, they just keep getting shorter until they stop completely.

He folds them up and tucks them into his underwear, hoping that he can find the orphanage so that he can talk to someone who can give him some answers.

Before he's about to join Laurence in bed, he wakes up.

"Jennie babe, what are you doing?" Laurence tiredly murmurs.

"I just went to the toilet." Drew replies. "Sorry I woke you."

"It's okay babe." Laurence smirks, pulling his girlfriend closer so that he can kiss her.

Jennie's awkwardly kisses back, starting to get uncomfortable when Laurence intensifies it. Soon, Jennie notices that Laurence's hands are lowering so she instantly pins Laurence against the bed.

"Jennie babe, that's a good start." Laurence crudely tells her.

Blushing a little, Jennie gives him a nervous look.

"We don't have to wait, I don't mind the blood." Laurence grins, leaning up to kiss his girlfriend's sensitive neck. "If it's you're first time, they'll be blood anyway so it doesn't have to make us wait."

Drew shudders before slipping away the papers underneath the mattress. Laurence doesn't notice and instantly starts pealing off Drew's underwear.

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When they're done, Jennie snuggles up against Laurence.

"Well, that was interesting." Laurence purrs.

She instantly gives Laurence a frightened look. "Was it?"

"Well, you've certainly not done that before." Laurence adds, twirling a lock of Jennie's hair.

"Of course I haven't." She defends.

"That shows." He giggles.

Jennie can feel her heart cracking. "What does that mean? Was I not good? Did I do something wrong?"

Laurence sits up, looking at the clothes thrown around the room. "Don't worry babe, you definitely know your way around my genitals."

She gives him a pained look. "I can't believe you can say these things to me."

"It's okay. We can work on it." Laurence tells her.

Jennie gives him a hurt look. "D-does that mean y-you wanna leave me?"

"I don't know, I mean that just there was nothing life changing so I know it's an option but I know that you really need me." Laurence sighs.

"Laurence, I do need you!" Jennie pleads, her eyes watering up. "Please, I l-love you..." She manages before sobbing against his chest.

Laurence lets out a frustrated sigh. "Jennie, babe, are you really going to do this now?"

"I'm s-sorry, I can't help it. I let you down and now you hate me just like everybody else. Don't leave m-me please!" Jennie weeps.

Laurence sighs again in irritation. "Jennie stop it. I'm not going to leave you if you can go one fucking night without crying your eyes out."

A high pitched, squeaky sob seeps out of Jennie at the sound of this before she manages to sniffle, wiping her face with the back of her hand. Jennie instantly clings onto Laurence. "Laurence, I'm s-sorry I cried. I want to be perfect for y-you." She sniffs.

"Well, practice makes perfect." Laurence replies, still not at all impressed. "That little tumble hardly shook my world, babe. Do you even watch porn?"

Jennie shakes her head with a sniff.

"That explains it then." He figures out. "Get some sleep, we'll watch some porn and try again tomorrow." He tells her.

Jennie spends the rest of the night overanalysing what just happened, shaking a little in fear that Laurence could leave her and then she'd have absolutely no one. Even with what's going on with her parents, she knows that she's going to have to confront them about drugging her in the hopes that she can finally get some answers.

While she's deep in thought about Laurence and her parents, the fact that she was ever a boy and the letters underneath the mattress slip from her mind as easily as water passes through a sieve.

With a headache, she manages to drift off to sleep.