I'm to big, your To old.

He knows

I wake up and just lay there. I feel Zach beside me. I hear him snoring. I know he knows what happened to me. Or I think he knows something happened to me. I don't want him or anyone to know what happened to me. It's something I want to take to my grave. I have tried so hard to move past it. I still have nightmares about it. I can't help it though. I try not to be depressed. I know I can't just lay down and stop. Ashley needs me to bad. Ugh! Fuck Ashley is going to ask me how I got the mark on my face. I can't tell her how I got it. She knows too much already about mom. I lightly sit up trying not to wake up Zach. I replace myself with a pillow so he won't notice.

"Finally," I sigh with relief. Ok do I leave him a note or not. I will just tell him I went to drop off Ashley and went to work. I look over at him. He's so sexy. I don't understand why he acts like he actually wants me. He has this look about him. With his dark hair and gray eyes perfect jaw...fuck stop I need to focus. Ok I tip toe over, get me a change of clothes, I grab my bag and I head out my door to get Ashley ready.

Time skip of getting Ashley ready ----------------------

"Ok Ash I called Sara's mom she is coming to get you and drop you off, ok?" I say fixing her jacket as we stand outside of our run down house. I called one of Ashley friends, which go to the same place as she does, and I asked if her mom wouldn't mind if she came and picked up Ashley to take her. Since my car broke down.

"Okay Sava," she says smiling. I'm very jealous that she don't know about how bad the world actually is. "Sissy how did you get that purple place on your face?" She asks pointing to my busted ass face.

"Well you see sometimes some people think other's deserve a worst punishment then having a time out. So I just got a punishment is all," I say trying to make it seem believable.

"Oh ok," she says looking down. I hear a loud honk. I look over and see Sara's mom waving us over.

"Come on ash." I hold her hand and help her out to the car. I open the backseat where Sara is.

"Hi Ashley," Sara says smiling.

"Hey..." Ashley says back but zoning out kinda there talking. I help Ashley in the car and shut the door. I come over to Sara's moms' window as she is rolling it down.

"Hey let me give you some gas money; since you are taking Ash for me," I say pulling out my wallet, but she stops me.

"No, don't you dare try to give me money young lady. I'm happy Sara has someone to talk to and I enjoy your sister too. You don't worry about her at all she is in good hands I promise. Now I know your car broke down, so do you need a ride to?" She asks.

"No ma'am I don't. I have a friend coming to get me. I promise," I lie to her. I don't want her to have go out of her way for me.

"Ok well if you need me call me dear," she says rolling up her window and driving off. I stand there on the side walk watching them leave. Ok now I need to get to Fuzzy's. I know Zach is going to be mad, but I need the money. It's not like my looks can pay my bills, I start walking. I walk down to the bus stop and wait.

Time skip to when she gets to Fuzzy's -----------------

I walk in through the back. I know I'm a little late, luckily they are not busy on Sunday's. I walk over to the dressing room. I open the door and see one of my favorite girls Diana. She's amazing and very sweet to me.

"Hey Diana, can you put something on my face to cover this bruise? Dave is going to throw a fit. He sees this he won't let me work the door. I need to work," I say walking in sitting down in a chair. I look around at all the makeup on the table everywhere.

"Aww sweetie how did you get that? And yeah I will cover it for you. Here let me get a good look at it," she says coming over to me. "Hmmm yeah I can cover this easily," she says looking from me to the makeup table.

"Ok," I say. I just sit there not really knowing what to do. She gets to working on my face. She looks so concentrated while doing it.

"Ok babe you're done. I also went ahead and added some eye makeup and a little blush. Just to make your face pop. You have beautiful skin. It's very clear. No blemishes at all," she says standing back. I look at myself in the mirror. I look beautiful. I have never had my makeup done like this. She is amazing. "Thank you so much Diana. I love it," I say smiling at myself in the mirror. Ok I stand up and throw on a black dress that is way too tight and short for me, but it's my uniform. I let my hair down to try to cover a little bit of me. I grab a pair of heels. Luckily the girls here leave makeup, shoes, wigs, all kinds of things for each other here. I put them on and make my way to the door. My job is booking dances. Putting people where they need to go. They give me the money for entering and if they want a private room or something, so I am like a receptionist. Just a receptionist for a strip club. I'm not proud of it neither are the other girls here, but it pays the bills. I walk over to my little stand with my barstool. I see Jim the bouncer next to it. He takes care of the people I need taken outside. Which is a life saver because there are a lot of those guys. They try not to pay or get other things on the side and we don't do that here.

"Hey Jim, how is the wife and kids?" I ask sitting down on my stool.

"Hey there Savvy. How are ya? Also they are good. How is your Ashley doing?" He asks looking down at me. I internally chuckle. He's too tall. He's like 6'7, but he is one of the nicest guys here. He tries to help us girls out. Haha I remember one time when bunny didn't have enough time to drop her kid off to the babysitter because she had a private party booked, so she brought her in here and Jim instantly offered to hold her. He ended holding her till the babysitter got here. Hell I remember one time I had a flat tire and I didn't have another one. He gave me his and put it on for me, so I feel like he's a good guy. Almost like the father I always wanted in a weird way.

"Awwww she's great. She keeps asking when she is going to see you and your family again," I say looking down at my book. Seeing which room is filled and which ones are about to be open and how many girls are already in private rooms of the club. I try to keeps the books straight. It helps to even though this is a strip club. It's not like we aren't supposed to be taken serious. We take a lot of precaution and make sure everything is legit. I start doing my work and listening to the music. Then I hear someone clear their throat. I look and see a pissed looking Zach. Fuck my life. He's mad and what is he doing here!

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A/N hey guys this chapter has been edited by my awesome editor please vote an comment love you guys ~Chloe