I'm to big, your To old.

Few months

I haven't heard from him in 2 months. I moved out into willows old apartment, since she's living with rain now. I'm happy they're together. I got a job working days, since there is a one bedroom. I sleep on the couch. I haven't even hardly spoken to any of them since, I left. I feel horrible about it, willow said my rent was covered an I asked why she's paying for it. She said not to worry. I think her an Rain is paying for it because they felt sorry about what happened to me, almost like the pity me, which I don't appreciate.

I tried a time or two to pick up the phone to call an see how he is. I miss him but I know it's not a good idea. I'm damaged goods.

I chicken out every time I pick up my phone late at night. I miss him an his smile how he made me feel safe. I miss his soft touching. Last month or so without him has taken a toll on me. Lost bit of weight an my hair is falling out from stress. I can't even bring myself to eat a lot. I've felt so sick, vomiting etc

Ashey took it kinda hard as well. She's asked me twice this week to have a sleepover with rain an willow. I told her they was busy maybe next week. I hate lying but I just needed to slowly back away from them. I love all of them we've become close. Rain willow Ryan an last bit not least Zac, but unfortunately me an Zac We wasn't good for each other. He deserves more. Some who wasn't causing problems.

Just to get by with food so neither rain or willow had to help I've taken up a job something like my old job at fuzzy's, except it's called Goddesses. Few of the other girls switch here from fuzzys

I stare at myself working a double shift today. Lucky I got Ashley to sleep at friends House with a another girl like her. Phew I got only few more hours. Till I'm finished. I'm definitely watching the clock at well.

I tryin the keep myself busy, wiping tables, grabbing drinks. Cleaning up messes on the floor, I walk over to table 5 that just left from the back of the club having to get on my hands an knees cleaning up the spilled food.

I hear a low whistle as I feel a hand on my behind, I tense, turning my head to look back. I see the one person that uses to be one of my biggest problems.

Jack, Vicki son, I shudder as I quickly get up, Turing wide eyes at him.

Why are you here, I whisper looking around us seeing who else if anyone I know is here.

More like where have you been, ohhh boy you're mother is gonna beat the shit out of you!!! Fuck I hope she lets me watch he says huskily coming closer to me as I try to back away.

No way am I going back, I say trying to put more Authority in my voice. Feeling my heart about to drop,

His face turns from smug to anger in a flash, as he reaches forward grabbing me by my arms squeezing. I let out a low wimpier as I stare into his crazy eyes.

Listen you little bitch you will return either normal way or gaged an drugged. He spits out starting to shake me, I feel myself getting flash backs from Brent an now jack.

Just as I was about try to get him to let me go, one of the best managers I've ever worked for saves the day.

Umm sorry no touching, the waitress workers or the dancers I catch you doing this again you'll be banded from this place got it.

Yes ma'am I understand he grits out as he walks away, I let a sigh out as he goes towards the exit.

I then am look towards her as she's holding a clipboard,

Thank you I say softly feeling embarrassed.

No problem the people here we're like family. she smiles as she walks away.