I've come to realize something
And it may be the best
And the worst thing to
Receive so much attention
Well, other than you that is
You will not save me
Push the bad thoughts away
You are their creator, their ruler
And I carry them out day by day
As your undying slave of affection
The affection that is not returned
In the way I so desire
So I'm drowning the pieces of my
Heart that hold you
In the lake where we used to play
Carry it away as it tries to escape
And I'm afraid it will
But my fragile arms cannot fight back
No matter how hard I try
And how much the water beckons us
I'm so terrified to let you go
The artist always needs a muse
And I'd rather not find someone new
It will be the same pain all over
Just as it was with you
I can never stitch things back together
No matter who I find
Either because I still love you
Or the new doesn't love me too
But I'm too blind to see
You want just as bad to drown this
But I won't allow it because fantasies
Can seem so real
I thought I'd had a chance
But as always, I'm wrong and you
We're always right to push me away
Because you just needed to save yourself
I'd rather have it that way
Being your slave, that's how it is
So I'm drowning this companionship
This terrible thing we have
And in finding a new muse
A prettier one that would be willing
To start this whole thing over
And kill me slowly without care
I've glorified you for far too long
And I'm ready to die again
