Dylan,
Why am I destroying myself like this? Katie knows I'm depressed. She doesn't know I pick open scabs as a form of self harm. She doesn't know how often I seriously consider suicide. She doesn't know that today when Mrs. Jones said helium inhalation can be deadly, I wrote down "HELIUM" as an idea,
She knows my mom yells at me. She doesn't know I believe every word. She doesn't know my mom hits me and pulls my hair.
She doesn't know that at night I look at quotes about suicide and that they ring true.
You don't know any of that.
Not many people do.
When I asked Lacey why I'm always so sad, she said "lol".
I want to die.
-J
