Fallen for a sith(kylo ren x reader

chapter 12, three months in

*3 months later*

it has been three months since you arrived at the planet and it had been a month since you hd received any messages from kylo you were really starting to worry it was all you could think about and rogue could sense it "what is troubling you young one" he asked you were training with him and you were balancing upside down on one hand with rogue sitting on one of you legs though you meditated while he did it so it was ok "im worried about the one i love he hasnt sent any holomessages to me for one month im starting to worry" you replied "worry you musnt eveything will be fine" he said

you sat on a tree branch hanging upside down off it thinking about what to do to kill renus you had thought of everything but doing what kylo did to han seemed perfect as you thought a holomessage went off in your pocket you dropped to the floor and pulled it out setting it on the floor , it was hux. "hello sato i need to speak with you about somethin, a girl followed kylo onto a ship on one of his missions she has been staying here for a while i needed to tell you that i saw kylo kiss her i think you needed to know its why he stopped sending you messages" "thank you for telling me hux ill see you later" you replied. as soon as you closed the hologram you fell to you knees crying it was the second time he had done this and you had had enough of it you ran to your cabin in tears locking the door behind you. you didnt know what to do you looked down to see your lightsaber you looked at it and you pulled it off your belt you opened it up and looked down at your pale arms then you placed the red beam on your arm making a painful burn you did this process to both of your arms until all the burns bled so much that you couldnt see your skin anymore it was just red. you got up and ran your arms under some cold water and then you bandaged them up rogue called for you and you pulled your sleeves down returning to renus with your mask on so he couldnt see your tear streaked face.

Rogue asked you to sit in the middle of the lake and stay there using the force and you obeyed him. you walked out into the middle of the lake using the force to make sure you didnt fall under. you sat down in the middle of the lake and you focused so much that drops of water began floating in the air. Rogue looked at you with shock that you could do such a thing the water began spinning around you so fast that he couldnt see you "SATO STOP" he shouted as soon as he did all the water fell and as did you. you resurfaced and swam towards him ,he helped you out of the water and said that you could go in for the night and you did you pulled up your sleeves to see that your bandages were covered in blood so you changed them you couldnt sleep that night because of the depression and the pain in your arms hopefully the marks would scar over soon.