Fallen for a sith(kylo ren x reader

chapter 1, the mission

"please let me lead the mission leia please im begging you"i whined the newest mission was to retrieve a prisoner from a first order base and i really wanted to go but leia wont let me it really annoyed me and i was about to say something more when i heard poes voice "oh come on commander give the kid a chance plus ill be keeping a close eye on her" he stated i smiled up at him with my big red eyes i had , had red eyes since birth even noone else in my family seemed to ave the defect well the family i used to have, he smiled down at me "fine but be so careful i cant lose someone else that i care about" she said i was practically jumping with joy. poe motioned for me to come get ready i was so exited.

poe, , chewy and myself all boarded the x-wing and made off towards the base it was still a long way until we got to the base so i decided to go to sleep i leaned into poes shoulder and fell quickly to sleep suddenly the same night mare or memory of that night came back to me. i remember what happend to me that night clear as day it was the day i lost the one i loved.me and ben solo had been friends ever since i went to jedi camp i was really his only friend since all of our comrades teased him calling him names. i remember i met him first when i heard someone shout "HEY GUYS LOOK BIG EARS BEN GOT PUT IN TIME OUT AGAIN" one student yelled "no im just meditating" ben mumbled .once the students had left i went and sat beside him "i like your big ears" i said with a smile he looked away i could tell he was crying "fine ill just sit here and while you mope" i said soon i got to bored and got up as i walked away  i ruffled his soft  black hair. 

at dinner that night ben sat alone at a table of his own picking at his food suddenly one of bens bullies approached me suddenly a painful pressure hit my head his hand was outstretched towards my head then i realised luke wasnt with us to stop him he was out meditating i also realised he was trying to read my mind it hurt alot suddenly i grabbed my lightsaber and looked at it i had never used it around my comrades because of its colour. i grabbed it and activated it and the long red beam shot out i force lifted him against the wall and held my lightsaber to his throat everyone gasped i grinned as my saber retracted i dropped him.

over the days after that me and ben became really close we were always meditating and hanging out together so close he was ok with me cuddling him. one day me and him were sitting in a near by forest sitting in a tree far away from anyone else i leaned backwards into his chest as i twirled a few stones in the air using the force. i looked up at him and poked his cheek he looked down at me and smiled he poked me back i leaned back and i felt him take some of my h/l h/c hair and he started braiding it. soon after he was done i felt that same pressure come down on but it was on my throat this time, i started choking i started trying to warn ben i started gagging for air as soon as he noticed it stopped i started taking deep breaths and ben pulled me into his arms he looked around and saw the same boy from the other night he took one of the stones that i had been levitating and threw it the stone hit the back of the boys head i laughed in between breaths. after that we walked back tho the camp

two nights later i woke up and all i could hear was people panicking i ran outside to see ben killing everyone in his path there was blood everywhere. i ran up to him and as i did he turned around and choked me i begged him to stop he stopped as the sound of air ships came closer he ran into the forest leaving me on the ground coughing up blood as his mother rushed to help me.

and that was how my journey began.