Scomiche - Secret Diary of a Fangirl

19. Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day.

Ava: Soooo, did you give Scott the tickets?

Mitch: sort of there was a change of plans
Mitch: Alex showed up out of nowhere to surprise him so I gave them the tickets

Ava: You WHAT? Why?!

Mitch: I didn't know what else to do.
Mitch: He's staying until Sunday
Mitch: it's not like he's going to want to go see shows with just me when his friend flew across the country to see him

Ava: yes he would! Honey you didn't have to do that

Mitch: i did.
Mitch: and it was going so well then alex just showed up and even scott didn't know what to do
Mitch: itll be easier this way
Mitch: i have to let him go and why not sooner rather than later. It was just one last week to torture myself with what I'll be letting go
Mitch: alex probably thinks im a basket case
Mitch: i just locked myself in my bathroom and i cant stop crying
Mitch: and its just stupid

Ava: I can't argue that logic but I feel bad for you, I know you were looking forward to this so much.
Ava: why don't you come over? I'm not feeling my best, stupid sore throat, but you're more than welcome to get out of there and come here

Mitch: wait... sore throat? please tell me that was a typo

Ava: I wish. Just woke up with it :(
Ava: it's not a big deal

Mitch: of course
Mitch: Just more of my shit luck...
Mitch: I can't see you... I can't get anywhere near you

Ava: whyyyyyy
Ava: come cuddle me

Mitch: The same reason for all of my issues...
Mitch: Scott
Mitch: if I get him sick.... ESPECIALLY with a sore throat...

Ava: fine fine, I see your point.
Ava: so we get to be miserable alone
Ava: this isn't fair

Mitch: I thought at least you'd be there to put me back together but
Mitch: im sorry
Mitch: ignore me i'm just extra emo right now...
Mitch: I should go actually shower before they think I've drowned

Ava: I'm so sorry love You know I'd rescue you in a heartbeat if I could

Mitch: I know. love you. feel better

Ava: text me if you need me. Love you back. And please do not sit and torture yourself by thinking about them. Go do something.

Mitch: I'll try

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It takes quite some time before I feel like a person again. Everything just seemed to hit me all at once and I end up a crying mess in the shower. Losing David, losing Scott... the fear that I'm making the biggest mistake of my life... It's overwhelming. I was really hoping for some Ava hugs and cuddles, but just to add to the comedy of shít luck I have... even that is a no go. As much as I want to say fück it and go anyway, if she has strep or ANYTHING that I could possibly pass to Scott then I can't take that risk. Especially not right now. His album release is in less than 2 weeks ... I can't take chances with him... not like that.

So as much as I need a friend right now, I'm all alone.

At least I was until I finally emerge from the warm safety of my bathroom to find Scott sitting on my bed.

I could have sworn I locked that door.

He's just sitting there and holding the tickets, looking at me like he's not sure where to begin. When my feet seem stuck to the floor he pats the spot next to him and I slowly walk over, hoping the makeup I put on is doing its job to cover up the evidence of my cry session.