Im Tired Of Feeling Alone

15) Am I alone.?

(Arizona's POV)

I walked down stairs and seen Ethan sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. 'What's up with him.?' He must of heard me coming down the stairs because he jumped a little. "Hey.." I said standing at the bottom of the stairs leaning on the rail. "Hey" he said getting up and walking over towards me. "Are you okay.?" I said backing away from him a little bit. "Please don't back away from me... please.." He said stepping closer towards me as I backed away a little more smirking at him. "I love you." he said cupping my cheek. "I.. I-I Love you too.." I said smiling at him. He sighed in relief. "So does this mean that you forgive me and we can go back to normal.?" He asked. "No. I don't forgive you. I don't forgive you yet. I mean this happened like 3 days ago. And I know that you were drunk but come on... You should've had control over yourself. I know you didn't mean to do it. But you should've had control..." I said kind of getting sad. "I know.. I know and I'm sorry Arizona.. I'm really sorry. But I want to make it up to you Monday. In 2 days... Okay." He said placing his hand on my shoulder. "Umm.. Uhh okay.." I said confused as to what he wanted to do. I hope he didn't take me to a fancy eating place or some shit like that. I have anxiety. Gez.. "Well I have to go to the store.. I'll be back." I told him grabbing my keys from the table beside the door. "Wait I'll go with you." He said before running up stairs and running right back down. "Okay lets go." As we walked out the door we got into my truck and drove to the store. I parked in a parking spot about mid way from the store. "Lets go." He said intertwining our fingers together. I smiled and kept walking. I loved this... We walked into the store and I grabbed a cart thingy and started pushing it down each isle picking up what I needed. When we got finished getting everything we needed we went to the checkout line. It wasn't that big. We paid for everything and walked outside.

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When we arrived back home we carried all of the bag inside and put everything away in the correct spot. Ethan went into his room and shut his door. 'He's been acting strange..' I thought to myself and I quietly walked upstairs and sat beside his door. 'Was he singing... and playing the guitar..?' I said to myself.

***I never knew

I never knew that everything was falling through

That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue

To turn and run when all I needed was the truth

But that's how it's got to be

It's coming down to nothing more than apathy

I'd rather run the other way than stay and see

The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in

Over my head

Over my head

With eight seconds left in overtime

She's on your mind

She's on your mind

Let's rearrange

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage

Just say that we agree and then never change

Soften a bit until we all just get along

But that's disregard

Find another friend and you discard

As you lose the argument in a cable car

Hanging above as the canyon comes between***

As he finished his song I heard him get up. I quickly ran to my room and shut the door. "Arizona..?" I heard Ethan call out as he walked closer to my room. "Umm yes.." I said fast. "What were you doing...?" He asked. "Ugh I was.. In my room. Why.?" I answered. "Oh because I thought I heard you.." He said before walking out of my room and I guess he went back into his room because I heard his door shut behind him. Wow he could really sing good and he could really play the guitar really good. Wow.. He never told me this, Why? Why was he holding in such a great talent. Maybe he was just embarrassed. But he had a great voice... Hmm.

(Ethan's POV)

I walked out of Arizona's room and back into my room. I placed my guitar back in its case and slid it under my bed. I didn't tell anyone about my singing because of what happened a few years back.

(FLASHBACK)

"You cant sing at all Ethan... Its just horrible. Horrible. Don't ever do that again." I heard my mother say as she headed out the door to work. I promised my self that I would never sing in front of anyone ever again.

(END OF FLASHBACK)

My mother has never liked me. She actually hated me. I don't know what I did wrong. She acts like a normal mom when my dad and other people are around but when no one is around she hates me. I don't even know why. I know she didn't want 2 boys she wanted 2 girls and 1 boy but she didn't have to hate me just because I was a boy. She just hates me for no apparent reason. That also another reason why I moved in with Arizona. I couldn't handle the hate any more. It was getting to the point when I wouldn't go home when it was just my mom home. It was bad.. Really bad....

I looked at my hands and the thought of my mom made me really mad. I wanted to punch something. But I knew I couldn't. I couldn't. So instead I cried.. I cried.

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*************CAUTION... THIS A/N IS LONG AND BORING SO I WOULDNT ADVISE READING IT IF YOU HATE BORING LIFE PROBLEMS. SO DON'T READ IT IF YOU HATE PROBLEMS. okay.. Byeee:)****************

A/N: Okay so Ethan can sing, His mom hates him and he's a softy. Wow.. Maybe he's not the 'Bad Boy' after all... Oh and the song he sings is called "OVER MY HEAD" BY THE FRAY. I LOVE THAT SONG!! SO THATS WHY I PICKED IT... SORRY IF YOU FUCKING HATE IT...

Okay well anyway I'm sorry for the sucky chapter.. I was in a hurry and my brother was watching me type this the whole time.. I have to type this on my laptop because This story wont load on my Wattpad app on my phone.... And I cant write it on my phone unless I use safari. And I'd rather just type it on here... It's easier than safari.