Spell Binding (Phan- [little bit] kickthestickz)

a good time

I ran to my room and hid under the covers, the silence filled with ugly harsh sobs. why was I so worked up over him? he was my best friend for god sake! I have never felt like this about anyone before, my heart was shattered and my head was pounding from all the crying. I lay there looking at the ceiling, silent tears streaming down my face, I cried until I fell asleep, a dream land where pain and heart-break don't exist, where I can be happy and free- I like it there.

My peaceful slumber was rudely awaken with Chris shoving my shoulder. "What?" I groaned, turning round and snuggling into my covers "Dan...are you ok, I couldn't find you after the game and you missed dinner- I was worried" he whispered, sitting down at the end of the bed. I peaked through my covers, before sighing deeply and sitting up, rubbing my sore head and groaning audibly. "Well I'm here and I obviously fine" I snapped, crossing my arms in front of me. "Your eyes are blotchy and red, and you have a wet patch on your pillow, it's too obvious that you've been crying" he stated matter of factly. "So what if I have been?" I grumbled, pouting a little and my forehead increasing slightly with annoyance. "Please Dan! I'm worried and I just want to know what happened!" Chris pleaded, his face forming the shape of a begging dog. I sighed, knowing I really had no other choice. "I saw Phil kiss Amy" I muttered, pushing my hand through my messed up curls. "So?" Chris asked, his face full of confusion. I looked back at Chris, letting one single, silent tear roll down my tinted pink cheeks "I love him Chris- I love him so much it hurts, I have for so long, I know he's not gay or bi, I know I had no chance but my heart won't stop wanting him, loving him- I can't bear to see him with..WITH HER!" I shouted at the end, my voice becoming choked and letting a new bunch of sobs and yelps pierce my ears.

Chris sat there for a moment, taken back by my sudden out burst but then he came and sat next to me, placing his arm around my neck. "it'll all be ok" he whispered over and over, gently rocking me back and fourth. He held me there for a short time. "I'm sorry" I said after a while, sitting up again and laughing at myself. "I'm just being pathetic" I smiled wiping my face with my sleeve. "no you're not- I know what heart-break feels like" He smiled sadly patting my back.

I mixed understanding what he meant- he had been through enough of that, I walked over to the bathroom and splashed my face with cold water, replacing my face, which was sore and stiff from all the crying. "how about we go out tonight?" Chris suggested from the other room. I patted my face down with a towel considering this option. seeing as we were older we could leave the premises, as long as we were back for lessons the next morning. "Yeah why not" I smiled walking back in, I need some fun tonight- you, me and Pj, sound good?" I asked. "yep, better get ready....I'll go tell Pj" he grinned, sitting up from the bed. "see you in an hour"

I smiled, I was going to go out and I was determined to get Phil off my mind.

A/N ok I have an idea for the next chapter bear with!