Anime One-Shots

The Pain of Remembrance (Kosei x Kaori)

I finished Your Lie in April quite recently and now am crying over it like a delayed reaction. While I'm angsting over such a beautiful pairing, I figured that I'd write a one shot to mirror my pain. If you don't wish to cry, this probably isn't for you...

Anime: Your Lie in April.
Character(s): Kosei Arima and Kaori Miyazono.

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The stars beamed and glittered in the sky and reflected off of the undisturbed water; the silver moon nowhere in sight. Without the moon, the stars seemed to shine ever brighter. Perhaps that's what made it so beautiful - or perhaps it was the girl beside me. From her shining blue eyes to her flaxen waves, everything about her was just so full of... Life.

She turned her head towards me, which caught me off guard. I could only hope she didn't catch me staring at her as my face fell into a crimson color, but she gave me a complicated little smile that showed me she did. There was simply no way to sneak past Kaori Miyazono.

Reason to remember that night: it was the last night I saw her on her own two feet.

As she began to wilt like flowers going out of season, I felt betrayed somehow. How could someone who brought me so much joy suddenly begin to fade away? Just like my mother, she sat prim and proper in the hospital bed each time I came to see her. My thoughts couldn't help but wander to the woman who left me in the dust, and compare her to the girl who pulled me out.

I'm so scared... Please, don't leave me!

I knew how she felt, and every fiber of my being felt each word she said. Being alone, being scared, being human. That day - the day I held her as she sobbed into my chest - I felt it too. And I knew; after all, everything about her was more fragile, from the way her pink sweater sagged on her thin shoulders, to the way her breath escaped her slightly parted lips in soft wisps.

It was all a sick, terrifying reality. Living without you truly hurts.

Reason to remember that day: it was the day reality hit me.

Every note you played, every note you sang, my heart seemed to beat just slightly harder. From the first day I saw you as you wept on the playground toy, to the day we played together as one, I simply loved to hear the music you made and the feelings you made me feel.

And when I pressed that first key as you made that first bow stroke, my whole world began to light up.

Reasons to remember that performance: I finally felt like I was alive.

So were you able to reach me? Were you able to live on in my heart?

The answer is so clear, I can't help but chuckle at the question. Yes. You live on in my entire world, from the waffles at the pastry shops, to the softly-glowing music room, to the plump petals falling off the the cherry blossom trees. You live on in my world because you were my world.

Reasons to remember Kaori Miyazono: I loved her with all of my heart.