Don't Fall for the Big Bad Alpha

Chapter 2

Panic was setting in as the footsteps got closer and I subconsciously pressed my body closer to the wall behind me. I looked down at my feet, hoping they'd just go away. But when another set of feet entered my line of sight and stopped, I knew that wouldn't happen. I let out a shaky breath and dropped my cigarette, slowly moving my foot to put it out. A low growl came from whomever was standing in front of me, and I jumped a little, causing me to look up at him.
Our eyes met instantly, and everything stopped. His deep brown eyes stared intensely into my green ones, and suddenly I felt small under his gaze. I felt small, weak, ugly. My wolf stopped howling out of excitement momentarily to growl at me when I thought that.
Mate would never think those things of us. She growled at me.
He might. We don't know him. I sighed inwardly.
All she did to respond was growl again before going back to her happy yipping and howling.
I looked down at my feet again, my anxiety eating at me. I vaguely noticed he was closer than before, but it still shocked me when he grabbed my chin and made me look up at him. My eyes went wide as I looked at him, and my heart beat faster.
"Mine." He growled out, staring me down.
"W-what?" I was for some reason at a loss for breath.
"You. You're mine." He growled while grabbing my hips and pulling me towards him.
I looked up at him as he held me, my arms not being able to go anywhere except around his neck. My heartbeat sped up once again and my breathing faltered, as I thought of all the things he'd find out about me before he realized he didn't want me. My breaths came out short and quick, my lungs seemingly getting smaller by the second. I got more and more panicked as time went by, only adding to the panic attack that was building up. I suddenly got very claustrophobic in his arms, feeling like that was a factor in my current inability to breathe. I wiggled out of his arms, needing air. He seemed confused and held me tighter, causing me to panic more.
"P-please let me go." I stuttered, my voice shaky.
"Why should I let go of what's mine?" He tilted his head to the side, watching me carefully.
"B-because if you d-don't I'm gonna have a panic attack." I spoke through clenched teeth.
His grip on me loosened and he watched me through wide eyes as I pulled out of his hold and walked away from him and the building. I sat down on the ground and put my head in my hands, catching my breath. I was so fucking embarrassed. I meet my mate and the first thing I do is almost have a goddamn panic attack. A tear slips down my face and I quickly wipe it away, sighing frustratedly at myself. Of course I just had to go and embarrass myself in front of my mate.
I felt a pair of strong arms wrap around my waist from behind, pulling me back towards him where he sat a little bit behind me. I gave up trying to get away from him and just let him comfort me, leaning back into him. He gently lifted me up and set me back down in his lap, my head leaning back on his shoulder. He bent his head down and I felt his lips touch my neck, sending sparks shooting through me. My entire body was already tingling from everywhere I made contact with him, and I couldn't bring myself to stop him or move away. He trailed his lips up and down my neck, leaving soft kisses all over. While his touch was exciting my wolf it was also calming me down. I sighed, loving the moment but needing to get back to work. I turned my head to look at him, and I realized I didn't even know his name. All I knew about him was that he's my mate.
When I looked over at him he paused and looked back at me, his deep brown eyes capturing mine.
"What's your name, kitten?" He spoke before I had the chance to, and his voice made me want to melt.
"Alexandria. And you?" I found myself saying, going against the nervousness in my head.
"Theo. Theo Knight. Are you alright?" He spoke softly at the end, his deep voice the only thing I could focus on.
"I-I'm fine. But uh, I've gotta get back to work or else I'll get fired..."
"Are you sure you wouldn't rather come with me, kitten? You know," he paused to suck on my neck a bit, "I'd be more fun than work."
He knew exactly what he was doing to me.
"I have to work, otherwise I can't afford to keep my apartment. And if I didn't, then I'd be homeless. So yes, I'm sure I want to go back to work." I began to growl low in my throat as I realized that he was probably just wanting me to leave so he could fuck me and then reject me.
"Oh but I think I could take care of that, kitten. You wouldn't have to live in an apartment." He smirked against my skin.
"I'm fine where I am. I don't need your help," I paused as I pulled myself from his grasp and stood up, "Theo."
"You're my mate," he growled, "you're mine and you will live with me."
"As if you actually want me. You probably just want to fuck me and then get rid of me and move on to the next slut who throws herself at you, because you seem like one of those cocky alphas who doesn't give a shit about their mate and fucks around with all the pack sluts. Besides, I'm a rogue. And I did something bad to get this way. What alpha wants a mate who's done something so bad that she was kicked out of her pack?"
"You know nothing about me, so don't act like you know how I'd treat you, I could treat you like a queen for all you know." He growled, pushing me against the wall.
"You could also treat me like shit. And I'd assume the latter is correct. So," I ducked under his arm, "goodbye, dear alpha."
With a triumphant smirk playing on my lips I strolled back into the bar, putting my bag away and returning to my work. I felt the somehow already familiar gaze of those deep brown eyes following my every move as I worked.
When one of my favorite songs to dance to came on I decided to loosen up at bit, dancing around behind the bar with my friend who worked here. We laughed as all the guys on the other side of the bar stared at us as we swung our hips to the song. I knew he was watching me. But I wasn't doing it for him. I winked at him from across the bar, to which he scowled and looked away from me, but as I turned the other way I knew his eyes were back on me, unable to resist watching me as I swayed my hips back and forth. I grinned in triumph as the song ended, guys at the bar whistling as my friend and I high-fived each other and we each downed a shot. We quickly went back to work and our shift went by fast. At the end of my shift I walked to the back and grabbed my stuff before walking back out front and out towards my car. I felt someone following me and immediately knew it was him. I sped up my walk until I finally reached my car. I was getting my keys out of my bag when I was pushed up against my car, causing me to yelp, his body trapping mine between him and the car. I froze, having no idea what he was trying to do. But whatever it was, it both terrified and excited me.
He ran his hands down my sides until he reached my hips, where he squeezed roughly. I squirmed as his lips trailed across my bare shoulder, his hands traveling up and down my waist.
I couldn't see him, but I knew it was him from the tingling sensation I felt wherever he touched my body. I shivered as his mouth sucked hard on the place I was to be marked. I tried hard to not moan, and my hands grasped for anything in front of me to keep me stable. I wanted him, but I knew if he was anything like my last alpha was to his mate then I'd be a fool to let him have me.
His hands traveled down my hips and moved to grab my ass, squeezing it forcefully between his fingers. I gasped, not expecting him to do so and shocked because I had been lost in my thoughts. I felt his smirk against my neck, as he let go and began moving upwards and into my tank top. I sucked my stomach in as much as I could, not wanting him to know how fat I was. He trailed his fingers lightly all across my stomach until he felt they had explored enough and he stopped, resting them gently directly under my bra. My breath hitched in my throat, his hands now still but his mouth still moving all over my neck. I felt him gently take my earlobe between his teeth before speaking right next to my ear.
"You say I fuck with a bunch of pack sluts but then you go dance for a bar full of men? Maybe you're no different than the pack sluts." He growled lightly in my ear.
"I'm nothing like them." I growled at him.
"Prove it then. Come with me and don't mess around with another male."
"No, I'm not going to go back to your pack with you only to find that you've already got some other girl picked to be your Luna, and you have tons of girls throwing themselves at you, and that you just let them, and you even give them what they want."
He spun me around to face him.
"You're the only one fit to be my Luna, why would I pick anyone else? And why would I do such things when I've found my mate? I have no need for them."
"I don't believe that you wouldn't rather have some other girl over me. And I won't go with you because I'm not up for putting myself through more hurt than what I've already been through. Okay?"
"More hurt? What's that supposed to mean?" His eyes softened a bit, his eyebrows furrowing in worry, but it could be fake for all I know.
"Nothing, it means nothing. Look I just want to go home, okay? Please just let me go so I can go home. I'm tired."
"You could come home with me, and sleep in my bed, where you belong."
"No I just want to go home and take a bath and go to sleep, okay? I don't 'belong' anywhere. That was proven when I was kicked out of my pack."
"Why were you kicked out, anyway? What could you possibly have done that was so bad you had to leave?"
"I don't want to talk about it right now. Can you please just let me go?"
"Oh but kitten, you're mine, I'll never let you go."
"Can you stop calling me that? I'm no kitten. And unless you want to find out just how not kitten like I am I suggest you let me go and stop calling me that."
"I'll call you whatever I want, kitten."
"Oh right, I forgot, you don't care what I think or how I feel, because you're just like all those other heartless alphas."
"That is not how I meant that and you know it, Alexandria."
"Wait a second, you actually remember my name? Wow, I'm impressed."
"I thought meeting my mate would be different. This isn't what I imagined when I imagined meeting my mate."
"Well I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted. I'm sorry that I'm not good enough. I'm sorry that I'm not very open to such quick changes because I've been through a lot, okay? I've been to hell and back in my life and I'm just not ready to put myself through more shit. I'm just not, and I'm sorry that that upsets you, but that's just the way it is. If you don't want to deal with it, if you don't want me, then you should just reject me now before either of us gets attached."
At this point there were tears in my eyes, and seeing this his eyes softened and his thumbs started rubbing soothing circles into my hips to try and calm me down.
"No, sweetheart I'm not going to reject you. Understand? And don't ever say you're not good enough for me. Okay? You are more than good enough for me. And I'm sorry that you've been through a lot, I'd love to hear about it someday. When you're ready to tell me all the bad shit that you've been through, and all the good shit that you've been through, I'd love to hear all about it. And I understand that you need some time to get used to all of this before you move in with me or meet the pack or whatever, that's fine. But let's at least try to get to know each other between now and then, I'd love to know more about you. But for now, will you at least let me follow you home and we can maybe talk for a bit? I just want to talk to you and I'd feel safer knowing where you live in case anything ever happened and I needed to come find you." He spoke softly, calmly while looking in my eyes the entire time.
"I-I guess that'd be alright. But not for too long, I'm really tired. I...haven't been sleeping well." I replied sheepishly looking at the ground.
"Why not, darling?" He asked with what looked to me like genuine concern written all over his face.
"I dunno, I guess I'm just not used to my apartment yet and it's hard for me to fall asleep and stay asleep... It's a lot different than being in my parents house back in Tennessee."
"Well how about when we get to your apartment you can tell me about your old home. Does that sound good?"
"Sure. You gonna follow me back or do you just want to ride with me and I can bring you back to your car later or something?"
"Yeah, actually maybe it would be easier for me to just ride with you."
"Okay."
I nodded at him and turned to pull my keys out of my purse, unlocking the car. I turned around to open the door but Theo stopped me, grabbing my hand as I reached out to pull the door handle and holding it back as he opened the door for me. I blushed slightly as I got in and sat down, a small smile creeping onto my face. He shut my door before walking around to the other side of the car, getting in the passenger seat. Once he was settled I pulled out of the parking lot, heading towards my building. Since it was so late there was almost no traffic, which I was grateful for. I plugged my phone up and turned on some music, not really caring what it was and just hitting shuffle on my playlist. As one of my favorite songs came on, I subconsciously began to hum it as it played.
I felt his eyes on me, and I turned to look at him. He was looking at me with an eyebrow raised, but the smirk he'd been wearing most of the night was gone and it made my heart stop as I worried about what I could've done wrong.
"W-what, what'd I do?" I said, my voice small.
"You were humming." Was all he said, his expression not changing at all.
My face turned bright red in embarrassment and I clenched the steering wheel between my fingers.
"Oh, s-sorry. I-I didn't realize I was d-doing it." I spoke, my anxiety causing this to sound worse in my head than it actually was.
"Why are you apologizing, kitten?" He cocked his head to the side, his eyes never leaving me even for a second.
"I-I didn't mean to annoy you. I didn't realize I was humming. I'm sorry I bothered you."
Goddamn it. I don't want to sound so weak in front of him but my fucked up brain doesn't seem to care about that.
"Hey hey hey, you didn't. You're fine, kitten. It was cute." He said as I pulled into the parking lot of my building.
Even after he said this I still felt ashamed because my stupid anxiety wouldn't let me get over it that easy. My hands shook and I began to reach for my purse, wanting a cigarette. Or needing, who really knows. But as my hand was just above my purse he grabbed it, holding my now seemingly small hand in both of his. I parked the car in my usual spot before turning to him, eyes wide as he rubbed circles into my hand with his thumbs.
"You're okay, sweetheart, I promise. You didn't bother me, or annoy me, or whatever it is that's going through that pretty little head of yours right now. It really was cute, I liked getting to see you loosen up a bit and just do something small like that that you probably do all the time. Okay? You're alright. I promise." He said in a soft voice, clearly trying to calm me down.
The odd part was, it seemed to be working.