The Game Of Life

Good Bye

Needless to say that question made me start balling and I go to my balcony. I stare up at the sky and think of all my possibility's, which I swear there are none. Alacer magically appears and he sits next me unmoving, un-talking, and not touching. He doesn't try to comfort me and somehow that makes it all better, I'm tired of being held and even more fed up with tears. After an eternity I stop crying and I'm glad for that and I know he is to because he sighs in relief.  I can tell from his facial expression that he really wanted to touch me, hold me and stuff so I don't know why he didn't but I'm glad. I give him a teary smile and sigh deeply putting everything into that one sigh and I feel lighter after words. "I'm not going to flip out all over again you can't calm down and stop being so tense, I'm not going to fall apart."

"I know its  just I don't know what's going on and its not my place to ask," he's right its not. 'It is his place', leave me right now dark creator I'm sick of you already. 'Damn who crawled up your a** and died?' your mom now go. 'Yes ma'am' and he leaves me alone.

"Its nothing to worry about there' just  so much going on"

"I'm sorry about Than"

"It was bound to happen"

"Well you always have me" and with those five words he gets up and leaves me alone. Even though I'm sitting outside all alone I don't feel even remotely alone. I think its because I know I'm not fully alone not yet at least. I need a distraction....

Aiden! Lets take Aiden clubbing again self that was fun! I skip to his room with a new sense of purpose, maybe if I can save Aiden from Aiden I can make everything...

I open the door and scream................

"Aiden!" I scream even though I know he cant hear me, "Aiden!" NO nonnonono, I'm full on crying our blood mixing together. I kneel in his blood and touch his wrist seeing old scars along his arm and the two gapping cuts. I lay my head on his chest repeating his name over and over again, I failed hm. I look into his eyes and it starts a fresh wave of tears when I see his just how dead they look and that they've been like that for a while. Just when did the light truly leave Aiden's eyes? They all finally reach the room....

"He's gone" I whisper..........

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Not going to lie I started crying while writing this, this reminds me of so much hell. I'm sorry if this brings up the old pain for anyone the way it does me.