Twitter Girl (Out Now!)

July 2013

*Zayn's POV*

I rolled over in my bed and saw Perrie laying there fast asleep. Now don't get any ideas we didn't do anything all that happened was we went out last night on a date and then we came back to my place and crashed.

I slipped out of under the covers carefully and walked down the stairs. I sat at the kitchen table and pulled out my phone. I may say that I love Perrie, and I do but just not in the way I used to, I still look at Avery's profile. Her picture is new though. Now it's her and Ocean standing in front of the wax figures of the boys and I.

@AveryLuvsZayn: guys stop hating Perrie. Her and Zayn are the perfect couple #zerrieforlife

@AveryLuvsZayn: Putting a smile on my face even though it's hard to

@AveryLuvsZayn: I love late night conversations with @Daniel_Steinman

@AveryLuvsZayn: sometimes I wonder what would happen if I told you my real feelings

I couldn't help but ponder those two tweets. Real feelings? for who? Why is it hard to put a smile on? There's something about this girl that I need to know. Something that I will know.

*Avery's POV*

*Dream*

"Someone help me please!" I yelled as I looked at the second me

She was laying in the tub unconscious with blood coming out of her mouth. An empty bottle of pills was about to fall from her hand. Her wrists were covered in little slits with blood coming out of them. Tears were drying on her face as tears were falling from my eyes. I wanted to look away but something was preventing me from it.

"Please someone!" I yelled again

I heard footsteps walking to my en suite door and the knob twisted. In walked Ocean. She looked into the tub and let out a scream.

"No!" she yelled falling to her knees.

"Ocean look I'm still alive," I say reaching a hand out to her

My hand passes through her shoulder and she doesn't even look at me. I know she can't see me, or hear me for that matter. They never can. I slowly sat by her and wrapped my arms around her, or as much as I could seeing as they just sunk into her, and held her as she cried. When she was calm enough she called my parents and the ambulance.

When the ambulance got to the house they came and carefully placed the body in a bag and carried it out to the vehicle. A police officer asked for Ocean to answer some questions in the front yard as I stayed with the body. I was sitting by the paramedic staring at the body bag with tears brimming my eyes.

"It's a shame," the paramedic says to the driver

"It is. What is it second one this week?" the driver asks

"Yeah same block too," the paramedic said

I was trying to figure out who else would've done something to themselves but we arrived at the hospital. They carefully took the body out and wheeled it to the morgue downstairs. I followed and when they left I looked at the little freezer thing they put it in. I saw a name tag that caught my eye and looked closely at the name.

I let out a horrible scream as the name registered in my head.

Ocean Johnson

"Avery!" a voice yells

My eyes flew open and I looked around. Ocean was standing over my bed looking down at me.

"Are you okay?" she asks

"I'm fine just had a bad dream," I say

"Is it the "one"?" she asks putting air quotes around the one

I just simply nod my head. You may be wondering. I'm not a cutter or suicidal or anything like that. But in the 6th grade this one really mean girl told me to kill myself and I don't know ever since I have a dream about me killing myself. It's different every time. But we still call it the one.

"Maybe you should tell your parents. It's been four years," she says

"I know but I just don't want them to worry. I'm not having them every night like I was," I say

She gives me a look but drops it. She knows I don't like talking about it. Suicide and death freak me out. I just wish that sometimes though I could stop having these dreams.

But I know that I'd never do that to myself so I don't really worry about it.

"So did you hear that Zayn and Perrie went out last night and she never left his house last night?" Ocean asks

"Omg! That's amazing!" I yell "They're so cute!"

"Ikr!!" she yells back

We start fangirling about how cute Zerrie is and we just had our normal summer day. Except I made Ocean go out for a run because she's a lazy turd and needs the exercise. Lol jkjk Love ya Ocean!