Wars Will Rage (SVU Fanfic)

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Nicole slammed her hand down on her phone and slid her finger across the screen to silence the alarm. It was 6 AM, her least favorite point of the day. It was the part of the day where she had to get up and get ready to face another day. But this day was the worst. Therapy and doctor visit day. So she'd have to get up and feel exposed for no reason, then go to the doctor and psychiatrist and really be exposed and judged.

She felt so tired. So fucking sick and tired of faking it through everyday. She didn't feel like she had any friends. Not anymore, anyways, since she pushed them away—though Lizzie told them not to worry, that she'd come back. She felt like her family was distanced from her. She didn't feel like anyone understood exactly what she felt. The person she trusted most was Jack at the moment, and that wasn't even saying much since she only understood him on a family level. Never in a million years would she tell him she was raped.

Her alarm went off again, five minutes later, and she knew she had to get up. So she rolled out of bed and applied some makeup to her tired eyes. Then combed out her hair and ran some mousse through the strands so it would stay wavy and not look like a rat's nest. Then she put on leggings with a sweatshirt and gym shoes. Just before she left, she brushed her teeth in the bathroom.

It looked like she tried. But it only took her fifteen minutes to get out of the door.

She made her way to school and avoided everyone and everything. She was at her locker when her phone went off, and she read the message.

"Good morning. Where r u?" It was Jack.

"My locker. By Miss Kramer's room" she texted back, a small bout of nerves bubbling in her stomach.

"On my way"

She sat and waited, but then remembered she had a text that she didn't read from the night before. When she saw she had no other text notifications, she knew it was Jack who texted her. She scrolled up in their conversation.

"Good night, beautiful(:"

She smiled at her phone but was interrupted by Jack walking up to her.

"Hey," he said, kissing her cheek.

"Hi."

"You didn't answer me last night," Jack said, jokingly. She knew he was joking, but still felt guilty. She had a chance at a new friend and was blowing it.

"Sorry. I was really tired and fell asleep early."

"It's fine. I just hope you looked at it by now."

"Yeah, I did. Thanks."

Thanks?! she thought to herself. That's the best you can do? He's cute! Flirt with him!

"I wish I would've answered," she said, trying to step up her game. She was naturally becoming more comfortable being around him. And hopefully, talking to him more would make her trust him.

"Oh yeah? What would you have said?"

"Mm...I'm not sure. Text me again tonight and we'll see."

"Okay, will do. What class are you off to first?"

"English," she said.

"Wait. With Mrs.Marken?"

"Yeah, why?"

"I'm in that class. How come we didn't know this?"

"I sit in the back and don't pay attention at all. Sometimes sleep."

"Well, true. Nobody's awake in that class. She's so boring."

"English is boring. I don't see why we have to learn it. I know what a verb is."

Jack nodded. "I know. I can't even take the classes I want to since I'm forced to take English."

The warning bell rang so they walked their way to class. Like in most of their classes, the students got to pick where they sat each day. Even though most people picked the same spot. Nicole smiled at Jack as a goodbye and made her way to the back of the class in her usual desk. But what surprised her was Jack went ahead and took the seat next to her.

She didn't notice at first, because she took out her book and started reading. But when she felt a gaze upon her, she looked up and saw him watching her.

"Can I help you?" she asked in a flirty tone.

"Nope, you're helping me all you can right now. Just read your book."

So she did. The bell rang so Jack took out his work, but still watched as Nicole reached into her bag for her notebook and wrote the date without peeling her eyes away from the words in her book. It was something different, amazing, even, as to how someone could get so lost in a different world. It was intriguing.

The teacher was gone that day, so the substitute gave them a worksheet. Nicole scribbled down all the answers and then went back to her book. Jack watched as Nicole was so lost in her book that she was smiling at the words, and then, at one point, she was near tears. Could words really do that to someone? He wasn't a big reader, but when Nicole got into a book there was no stopping her. She could finish a book in a day. It wasn't a challenge. And as he watched her react to this book, she, page by page, got to the end of the book.

The bell rang, signaling the end of the period, but she still had two pages left. Nicole sat in her seat until she finished, then closed the book, entering the hangover stage of finishing a book.

The rest of the day was a blur, as most says at school had been for Nicole as of late. Her and Jack didn't have any other classes together except lunch and history, so she was alone until the end of the day.

At lunch, she saw Jack with his big group of friends and didn't want to disturb him. Nor did she want to sit with so many people. So she sat with her sister and ate part of her lunch, then threw away what she didn't when Lizzie wasn't looking.

Over at the jock table, all of the football players had as many people squished into the table as possible. Even if only most could see him well, they were listening to what Jack had to say about one Nicole Benson.

"Wait, you haven't had sex with her yet?" one of the players asked.

"No. She's...quiet. And I've only been talking to her for a few days."

"Well, let us know if she's good at it, cuz we'll want a turn."

"Well I know her mom is one of those sex cops..."

"Dude, that means she knows every trick in the book!"

They shared a good laugh. Nicole heard the laugh too, but didn't know what they were laughing about. She assumed someone made a dick joke and every guy thought it was hilarious and went on with avoiding her meal.

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Time to stir up some more trouble...? Mhm. Yes, yes indeed. 😯😯

Stick around to see what happens next!