Ruined

• Chapter- 5 •

A week later I'm at my place, trying to convince my mom that I should go to the bonfire party tonight. She questions everything I do ever since I came back from Laura. I went to the doctor three days ago. I've done ultrasound and it proved that I'm cancer free. Thank goodness. Although, they told me there may be symptoms from my previous sickness, like a sharp rush of pain in the area.

That's it for physical symptoms but they also said that after chemotherapy treatment, people change mentally too. I would get sudden mood swings because fighting cancer requires many breaking downs, even depression in some cases. I've had it a month before surgery. It was really hard. I was mentally drained. Some people also have anger attacks after the traumatic stress they go through in the process of healing. I'm not sure if I'm that type of a person. I've never been tempted before.

They suggested mom and dad that I should visit a psychologist from time to time even if my behavior is totally normal. Just in case. I've been to one, two times and that's it. I'm too lazy and those sessions are so boring. I'd rather talk to Laura about my problems, she's my psychologist without even having a diploma.

"Please, mom. I'm healthy and I'm okay. ", I groan and tap the ball Laura has given me against the floor.

"What if you get a pain attack like the one you had last week? I don't want that to happen. I just wanna be near you so I could help. "

"You won't always be the one to help me. I'll have Chase and Quentin from the start. Cole and Laura will be a little late but they'd take care of me too. Please. I'm not a baby. ", I protest.

"Up until three months ago you were in a hospital bed, crying next to me and whispering how you don't want to die. I think you should wait a little. You always go out and don't think about your health. ", mom looks down. I approach and sympathetically look at her.

"I promise I will be careful. All of my friends will be there. It would be stupid if I didn't go. Just try to understand. I know you're worried but you let me out every weekend. ", I say. "Why is bonfire any different? "

"Because a lot of people is going to be there and it might effect you. It's a public event, not a close friends hang out. "

"Please. ", I blink down at her.

She shakes her head. "You'll be the death of me, Ross Shor Lynch. I swear if anything happens... ", her index finger stabs the middle of my chest as she looks up at me with a glare. I grin widely.

"Yes! Nothing will, I assure you. I love you mom. ", I pull her in a hug and she wraps her arms around my torso.

"I love you too, Ross. ", she mumbles against my chest.

We pull away and I notice the moisture of tears under her eyes.

"Mom. Stop it, please. I'm not dying, I'm going to the bonfire party. ", I state and wipe her tears. She chuckles.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. You can leave. I just got overwhelmed with feels. "

I kiss her cheek and pinch it before walking away. Grabbing my sneakers, I push them on my feet and stand up. After leaving the house, I phone Chase to ask him where he is. He says he's already there. It's for the school's basketball team. They've won the championship third time in a row. Only this time, without me.

I drove to the right place, away from the center of the city, and when I arrived it was already full of people. They haven't lit up the fire yet. They'd do it at midnight. I glance through the crowd only to see a familiar couple sucking faces. My lips curve into a grin as my feet carry me over to them.

"What's up, you two? ", I tap their shoulders.

Chase and Celest pull away and smile.

"Hey, man. ", Chase greets me with a short hug and a handshake.